Weekend

Soundtrack: Gotan Project - Celos

Have had a quiet and nice weekend, for a change. On Friday I went out to Murphy's with Geeta, Manuel and a girl called Ina that has been here for a week now. Nice to have some girlpower for a change. :) Saturday we went to see a movie called the Matador, which was funny. A nice little movie to just relax on a saturday evening, for once. N then we went to our old time favourite. Espressoholic. Ahh.. the good ol' days with kuni n his four girlfriends, and chilling with the group. *sigh* I think no one can resist that place. And today, I've been sick. Soar throat, fever, feeling sorry for myself.. calling mum... the lot. Pat woke me up at 14:30, wanting to borrow our frying pan, and I think he was kinda surprised that he woke me up, and I was kinda surprised that I was the first one to wake up... this flat is weird. Two ppl who sleep till evening and one that is never here.

I'm kinda tired.
Time for bed again.

all I want

I just want to sleep.
I just want to get through the day not worrying about not being appreciated, I just want to feel safe that life will bring me what I need. I just want back my faith, that everything sorts itself out. I want my heartrate to go down. I don't want to be afraid of change. I want to get fit. I want an oven.

Why do I worry so much?

I need assurance.

PMS (take it as a warning)

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - Love Letter

To long for something that is achievable if one dares to go for it, and to be realistic about what has been

I just finished watching Bridget Jones: The edge of reason, and now I'm really depressed... Why can't I fall in love with someone nice? someone who hits on me when I go out, who seems really nice and who actively seeks me up? Why do I always have to find some kind of mistake with them that just makes me leave in silence? Why do I have to be so picky..
And my new flatmate is driving me slowly insane. With Jo gone like all the time, it's just getting more and more worse. He is so monotone, so boring... And the worst of it is; he is a really NICE guy.
(Thatisapartfromstealingshampooandsoap
andtoothpasteandmakingdisgustingsoundsinthebathroom
andburpingallthetimeandnevereatinganythingbutnoodles
andsuggestingthathewantsmetocookandnevereverleavingtheflat
andalwaystalkingabouttrivialthingsandthingslikethat).
Please, PLEASE, let there be a change.













Other than that it's been nice to have a day off. Off from working like insane on my assignment and having an average resting pulse at about 110... I went with Jo and Trong to Satay Kingdom. Nice as, as always. Fish Curry is to die for.. Nah, rather to kill for.
Got out some movies, and I'm ready to be serious about my studies now. I sincerely hope. So So I'm gonna sulk for a little while longer, and then I'm gonna hit the books.

assignment...

It is now 2:34 am and I was going to sleep but I'm so stressed that my heart is racing on and I can't sleep I'm just thinking of the assignment and all the things I should be doing and worrying about the grade so I decided to give a shit about sleep and just study no use in trying to relax and whasting time like that when I can't sleep anyway. This is bad.

Look familiar anyone?

Soundtrack: Recloose - Why I Otta

Guess what happened yesterday:
Yes, a good ol fashion fire drill. Ahh, I miss those days in Vic house. Getting brutally awaken in the middle of the night, and freezing outside while waiting for the firemen to recover the item that had been microwaved for too long.. Nah, not really. Yesterday we had our first false alarm of Stafford house. And we had to walk back up...

I'm working, working, freaking out as usual and believing that I will fail the course and be kicked out of my education... Oh, the drama. If I fail this assignment that means hard work not to fail the paper. But: I have resolved that I will work harder from now on. I can't go on like it have up until now. I shall continue to play hard, but less time will be spent on procrastination and being lazy.

Next week we start again. I must say, next trimester I want to try and get my German classes squeezed into 3 days.. I hate having to travel up and down the whole week. So much time seems to vanish just in travelling...
Now I have to finish my assignment.

Survived!

I survived my dentist appointment, and can happily say that I don't remember any of it at all! Lovely... :)
Joanne came with me, and it all went very fast. Indeed, very fast. It said on the info that I got that the sedation blocks out your memory, so it seems like it goes very fast. And it did, it seemed like it took about 3 minutes. I love my dentist...

***HEARTY SIGH***

Assignment

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - sorrowful wife

Got the dentist appointment tomorrow. My nerves are still hanging in there, I have no Idea why but I'm thankful all the same.

Quiet, thoughtful and a bit melancholy tonite. I think it's called nostalgic...

I know lives, I could miss
Without a Misery -
Others - whose instant's wanting -
Would be Eternity -

The last - a scanty Number-
'Twould scarcely fill a Two -
The first - a Gnat's Horizon
Could easily outgrow -

Emily Dickinson

ok.. I have no life

Soundtrack: Björk - hidden place

It is really evident, when one has nothing to do. Suddenly, u have time to write about absolutely everything that happens every day...

I went jogging in my new shoes today, and it was kinda horrible... they need a lot of time, I think, to become comfy. I have blisters so big that they are almost bigger than my toes... I have no idea how to soften the shoes. Any suggestion will be appreciated.

Apart from that, I maxed out the traffic on my connection, and actually got some work done. And some new procrastinating: I created a scrapbook of all the plays I've gone to here in New Zealand, and I will put in nice pictures from my time here as well. Must go see more plays..
And, now I have Cheech and Chong to look forward to. :)

Snore

Soundtrack: Still, The National Bank - Half blind

This is like the creepiest shopping mall display I've seen in a while...

Slow days, haven't done much today. Gonna max out my internet traffic tomorrow and be without connection for the entire Sunday, maybe then I can get something done. It's worth a try. Gonna tuck in early for a change. (early = 1am) Some Emily Dickinson on the bedside should set me up for some nice dreams. ^_^

I am so cold...

Soundtrack: The National Bank - Half Blind

I AM SO COLD! Why won't they turn up the heat a bit... BRR! I am really quite bored now. Really. The next 7 days are devoted to my assignment, haven't done much today, but still feel proud as that I started.. hehe. It's gonna take some work though.. and I can't munch! Damn, I always munch when I am working, but my toothache is lingering, like a grey shadow over everything that I do. I will be sooo happy when I'm finished on Thursday. Still, I'm scared stiff. so mentally exhausting to go around and prodding all these feelings of fear all the time... And a total of all my friends don't get me at all. At least Jo doesn't laugh at me.

Today we went out for a dinner and a show. Nice.. we went to Istana Malaysia for dinner, which was nice, and then afterwards we went to Reading to see Iceage 2. Nice evening. :) Feels strange not to go out on a Friday... and I don't think I'm going out tomorrow either, not with this toothache, so it will be my first weekend since I go here that I'm not going out. weird.. but it feels nice too.

Buhbye shoes... U served me well!

Soundtrack: Sergei Rachmaninov - Konzert für Klavier und Orchester nr.2 c-moll op 18


So, as I said I completely toasted our shoes. and today was the sad day of parting with my old shoes... They have served me well indeed. If u feel like going down memory lane with me, go to my archive and look up October 16 last year when I bought them. So young... So full of life...
They were the one who changed my life, they helped me change from a couch-potato to a more healthy individual, who works out several times a week. They marked a milestone in my life that way. I shall always remember them.

So today I went and bought some new shoes. I can't not run anymore, at least now I know how to wash my shoes. You learn from mistakes. Yeah, as you may understand, not a whole lot is happening nowadays. I'm procrastinating as hard as I can, succeeding in a way with that. Was supposed to go for ballroom dancing today, but I actually hurt my anckle yesterday, so not reallly fit to be dancing ard trying to look gracious today. Mattis is havin a slumberparty, introducing Bearly to the rest of the gang. Hope they will keep it down so I can sleep.. hehe.

24 Bruises! (I counted)

Soundtrack: Faith No More - Easy

PAINTBALLL!!!!

Paintball is absolutely awesome!!! Spent about 3 hours on the field today, shooting at my flatmates and friends and getting shot at. Running in the bush and crouching down behind tyres and all... The first 15 minutes I was scared shit to get shot, and then I got shot, and that was it. It hurts like shit, but only for about 3 seconds. So: KILL'EM ALL! Man, that was fun. At the end, to empty our guns, we had a mexican stand-off, where we stood ground and just emptied our guns at each others. pain... immense pain.

When we got back we put our shoes in the washer. Aaand... They're all melted now. I don't know how to tell Ronny...

tired

Up until 6am because I had a tiny toothache...
T_T Scared. Have appointment in about 1 week..
Hope it will die down again like last time, so I don't have to reshedule. Will go on the 20th anyway, so ...

T_T

Holiday, barbecue and stuff

Soundtrack: Nina Simone - Black is the colour of my true love's hair

This weekend, as usual, there was partying. This time to celebrate the fact that our holiday has started! Easter holiday here I come! writing a 5000 word assignment... I got my German assignment back today and got a B+, cause I didn't take it seriously enough. that sucks, but at least I have a chance to resubmit. I'll do that. Have spent a whole our correcting my grammar and vocab, and was banging my head against the desk in despair when finally Manuel came to my aid. Thank goodness.. it's nice to have a private tutor. ^_^



This friday we had a bbq. It wasn't one of large scale, but it worked. A bit windy, but no rain, so good one. :) I made some awesome (forgive my modesty) teriyaki salmon packages, have been craving fish for some while so it was good as. After bbq we had a preparty in our flat and then hit the town.

Then on Saturday, Geeta asked me if I wanted to go out. Finally! A girl's night! We met up in her flat, then after a short trip to Mckenzies (dodgy as!) we went back and met up with Geeta's friend from Singapore (afraid to spell her name, in fear of being extremely rude and insulting the entire Indian world). We crashed an Indian party and it was really cool, there were free drinks and lots of Indian music all night! We danced the night away and then went to Gogo's for the first time ever. I quite liked it there.

So, now it is time to get serious and do some studying... I can't believe how lazy I am.

I love my dentist!

Soundtrack: Faithless - Salva Mea

I can't believe this! Here I was, chillin' out listening to loud as music, celebratin that my holiday is officially started, and the phone rings. IT'S MY DENTIST! He called to acknowledge my appointment that I booked yesterday, and wanted to know how I was doing, and then he went through the procedure with me, how the sedation works an all, and told me to have confidence in the sedation. I feel like a queen. All warm and fuzzy, my dentist really cares about me. :) I'm gonna get through it.

The least thing I can do in return is to give him credit:
It is Jeff Jones, at Symes de Silva house on Courtenay.

small update

Soundtrack: Massive Attack - Name Taken

Got woken up by a quick earthquake this morning.

I'm heading for bed, but thought I'd throw in a small update before I go. Have had a busy few days, and still I have an essay to finish by Friday!! Oh well, it shouldn't be impossible, but not that easy either. The topic is a bit boring.

This weekend I've been partying AGAIN. There was a Karaoke night in Stafford on Friday, and I sang Aha - Take on me. Horribly... *L* Ah well, it was good fun. Saturday I went out with Patrick, Manuel and my new flatmate, Ronny. He is really cool, I like him. :) He is definitely much more subdued than Joe, but he is good fun. I'm craving for girls... I'm hanging out with guys all the time! I'm really funny these days. I'm completely surrounded by people, but in a funny way I still feel a bit lonely. And afraid of being alone.. A lot of ppl will be going away in the next two weeks, so for all of my friends who are staying in Wellington: prepare to be bugged!! I'll show up when u least expect it and demand your attention. Everything is always changing and I guess the pace in which they are changing is freaking me out a bit..
So I went out for a walk just now and tried to calm my mind to focus on my essay, but didn't really succeed that well. My thoughts are flying away as much now as before I went out.