Soundtrack: Imogen Heap - Hide and seek

What is it about some people that makes them want to create an environment of uncertainty and disharmony? I am always trying to understand the motivation behind people's actions, but sometimes I am at loss.. I had an incident yesterday that felt really degrading. I didn't even know until I woke up this morning that I cared... but sometimes things happen that I don't understand and that I can't find any logic in, no matter how hard I try. Usually I am reasonably able to put myself into other's situation...

Overslept this morning, BUT, I didn't do it on purpose! First time this year. Goodness gracious me, what have I become..
Drifing back and forth these days in all things, such as my perspective on the world and myself, the aftereffect of lots of mixed up feelings about all sorts of stuff and persons, I'm a thoroughly confused girl this weekend I think. Desto more exciting. Come 5pm tomorrow I'll not only be confused, but also bruised al over if all goes according to plan. Nothing like shooting the crap outta your friends and some random people to keep sane from time to time. (Paintball). Going to my friend Tarz' party tomorrow I think, kinda feel like catching up with that lot.

I will go photoshooting on Saturday! The weather WILL BE NICE! My poor neglected camera is screaming for attention..

gurker och fogelbaisa!

I am sure now that I'm fire. Earth stabilises me, air gives me power and water calms me down. Really.. I was feeling all wired up yesterday, and went down to the waterfront to calm down (as usual... some ppl must think that I live down there). There I had this epiphany.

Just finished my essay 2 minutes ago... still feel sick after the weekend... now have to hurry down, hand it in, hurry back home and write my german assignment.. *sigh*
Being lazy is sometimes a real curse.

ET sais: "oouch"
I totally agree.

Another day... and another one tomorrow.. and so on

Soundtrack: The Doors - Yes, the river knows

I'm all alone, but I'm not lonely, because I'm in quite good company. I realise that my life is lived through music... for example: Today i woke up to the dance-beats of Alice Deejay- Better off alone. I Walked to school listening to Air - How does it make you feel. I Walked into town listening to Røyksopp, and got partially stood up by my friend Peter (although not really) listening to Sigur Ros. Went shopping with Jo thinking about Jazzanova's mix of Fat Freddy's "Flashback". I was drinking with Geeta listening to the new Black Seeds album, and have been studying with the Doors. Now Jim is getting older, and his voice more rusty, and I'm getting slowly more tired after this weird day.

I am still painfully homesick, my heart is bleeding for some strange reason, I don't have that much waiting for me at home but obviously a part of me still belongs there. Isn't it funny how we all move in cycles all the time? We're kinda predictable.. We're sad, then we get happy again, and then back down.. and up.. I'm homesick now and so on but I know that I'll be back to happy go lucky come the end of the week or maybe next week. Why does this knowledge not allow me to skip to the happy go lucky part?? Urettferdig. I don't feel lonely... In a way I'm just missing a small piece and have to find it again. I should go down to the water... that usually helps.
I know some of the things that I miss: I miss seeing spiders in the basement, and saving them from the wrath of my mother and stepfather who would kill them without a second though... I miss being able to see Deneb at the night sky, using the arrow in big dog to find it.. I miss some of my favourite trees, the hill, some things that never change and make me sure of the certainty of life... My parents... the moonlight (This city is too bright, it doesn't go proper dark in the night)... Rain and wind, when the weather is absolutely dreadful but I know that I'll be warm inside the house... The midnight sun in the summer and the northern light in the winter... blablaBLA. Listen to me going on and on. I miss the grey book!

Cravings..

It is incredible how much sweets a woman can eat at certain points of the month! Just today I've gobbeled my way through some bee balls, a small package of m&ms, a milo bar, l&p (about half a litre), almost a whole package of pods and quite a few starburst fruit burst caramels.... I now feel quite sick. I think I have managed to calm down the beast inside that keeps screaming for more sweets, and finally can rest a bit. Trying to write my essay, and I'm slowly making some progress... I even get writer's block writing this entry right now, sure sign to get back to work!

Birthdayparties galore

Soundtrack: The black seeds - cool me down


So many birthdays have been celebrated the last few weeks... Jono.. Renaye, and this weekend we celebrated Manuel's birthday. I baked my very first cake here in New Zealand, felt good to finally do some baking! Ophelia did an outstanding job, I think we're getting to know each other now and cooperate better. It was an absolutely fantastic evening, with everyone in a good mood, having a great time. We first had a kinda big party in our flat, before we went pub/clubhopping. Nice. I bought the new Black Seeds album yesterday, when we went to the warehouse to get some equipment for baking. It's nice. :) next weekend I'm looking forward to some R&R when some ppl go for skiing. That'll be good, the plan is to finalise (or as good as) my assignment on impacts of tourism on the environment in Milford sound. Sounds nice, eh? I like the new tourism courses, they are challenging and I feel that everything is useful knowledge. Not just blablabla, like some courses are.

The wind has been really strong today, the whole house is shaking. Today I haven't even been out of the house.. We had some nice Mascarpone thingy, a desert made by our fabulous new flatmate! We've watched fight club, all huddled together in front of the comp. Just like old times, but with new ppl. Times change.

Fun link of the day: Peter Crouch in action

Sunshine - At Home.

soundtrack: basshunter - boten anna

What is it about summer and warm weather that makes all Norwegians celebrate shit music? Every single summer there are some hits at home that would NEVER make it if the weather was crap and ppl had time to actually listen to the songs, like the basshunter song "boten anna". It sucks. And it is kinda provoking that such crap should generate money for the creator. Argh.

I am sucked into a vacuum, I'm tired every day and don't have much energy. I need some rest for my soul... or something.. I dunno.

What a weekend!

Friday night was totally awesome, we went to a birthdayparty on the tenth floor, and then went partying. On saturday we started partying early again, as we were going to the ALL BLACKS GAME!
It is acutally not so hard to get excited about the all blacks, and I must say that going to the game was the absolute highlight of my weekend. Going out afterwards was soo tiring... SOOO many people in town! So stuffed, so... tiring. But the game was awesome. I thought we had bad seats, but actually they were quite nice. We were behind the goalpost with excellent view of the big screen, so we caught most of the action. YEE!

Procrastination...

I'm back to my familiar pattern of procrastination... I realise that the word procrastination is so long just because then it takes longer to write it, and that helps the actual cause, muahhah. Uploading pictures to my photoblog... commenting on other ppl's pictures... worrying about talking too much in tutorials.. gazing out the window at the harbour... searching on TradeMe... Yep. I'm back.

*Grunt*

Drunk Ha tina: ppymuahh hAhh hahh haaa..
Why is it that y can get along with someone soo much better when hy r not living together anymore??? I dunno.. I had a good night, which usually means: I drink, I dance a lot and at the end I get my kebab at cuba kebab, all good (all though they gave me carrot instead of onion today, randomm). Good luck bar is cool. I like it. I met sooo many ppl going home today, and then in the end it was onlly 2 ppl?? maybe it was the big kumara, we passed it on the wahy.. lost some ppl there I think.
Jonno's b-day today, great cake! yum!













Wo ist Peter? We tried to find him but nooo. I found Frank though. :) Tired..
Gonna sleep now.

LOOOVE

stuff

I'm confused. I just wanna drown myself in schoolwork, and not have to think about my life. There's been another shift in the world, a new trimester, a new war in Israel, new people coming into stafford house and old people have left. New lecturers, new assignments, new feelings and old feelings, all mixed together in a huge bowl that just makes the outcome of the dough hard to predict.
Maybe weekend drinking has lost it's charm to me? I wasn't enjoying myself that much yesterday, apart from the fact that I met Peter for the first time in almost two months. It made the whole night out seem worthwhile. I was feeling sick, and in a sence nobody gives a shit. If you are the person bringing others down, everyone just wants to get rid of you as soon as possible. I have seen this happen before with others, so I just took off before anyone had a chance to be brought down by the fact that I wasn't feeling good. I'm not used to all this selfishness... I feel myself slipping, that I'm developing into a new person, and I'm not sure that it's the person that I would like to become, and I'm afraid that it is not possible to change the current and float the right way. I'm going to have to try, that's for sure. But right now, drowning in schoolwork seems juuust fine to me, not having to deal with all these decisions, not having to work hard to maintain my moral, my essence.

Soundtrack: Nina Simone - Night song

Yesterday was a veery cultural day for me.. I went to two exhibitions and one concert! The day started at about noon, when I met Trav to go get tickets for the symphony orchestra. After that we decided to go see the Constable exhibition at Te Papa, a british landscape painter. After that I was on my way to the family store to look for some bedside drawers, when Manuel texted me and asked whether I wanted to go to a photo exhibition at the Wellington city and sea museum. So I thought, hey why not, I'm on a roll here. On my way there I bumped into HGL on the waterfront. Still hot.. *sigh* Gonna be a good trimester ^_^. My last cultural thing was the symphony orchestra, which was absolutely GREAT. They played music by Schnittke (some contemporary composer I have no knowledge of), Beethoven (Piano concerto no 3, beautiful) and finished with Shostakovich (which was powerful as hell, I was completely blown away!). While I was sitting there being entertained by New Zealand's finest, All Blacks kicked Wallabies' asses!

After all this culture, I met up with Annika, and went partying! Yeah! After my bad night on Friday, it was good to have a "normal experience" again. Everything is restored to normal. We got in about 4, and Olivier and Manu made food. How awesome is that! I didn't have to do anything at all!

NOW, I have to get into study mode, as Trimester 2 starts in 14 hours! I passed all my courses, AND managed to keep the dreaded first C away. Pretty happy about that. My first A+ is secured, danke schön. My hair is bright red again. Well.. I think that's enough information for now.

sunshine, blue sky and grey harbour? have to check it out...

Went out partying yesterday, such a random thing. Renaye called asking for Manuel, and before I knew it, I could hear myself say: wanna come down? Weird... I don't know her well at all, but I guess it was just meant to be that way yesterday. I miss girls.. Joanne has been gone since TUESDAY, I haven't even seen her since Manuel came home. He insists that she don't like him. And so, just to get some girly company, I invited Renaye and her bottle of wine to come visit. We decided to go out, since it was girl's night at Blend. It was wicked fun, apart from a few things: Renaye called her bf, she was drunk and he was not, they ended up havin another argument (oouch..), Ronny was hitting on Philipp's gf even though we established that she is a full blown bitch... they should be perfect for each others then (OOUCH...) (I am soo mean..), apart from that everything was great. :) I have decided not to ever drink cheap champagne again, though.

Living with Manu is Awesome though! Today he made breakfast! Just like that! I couldn't believe it...

I had my first tattoo removal session yesterday. It hurt. N i feel like I'm betraying my cute little basilisk... *sigh* I guess that time of my life should be coming to an end.

Dad's home again

Dad went home last Sunday, and now I'm bored as. We managed to do alot before he went though, but didn't get to see the south island. Next time. :) This time I got to do some of the things that I wanted to last time I went north: We went to Taupo, where we went on the Jetboat at Huka falls (awesome), we went sailing on Lake Taupo, we went to Waitomo Caves to see the glow worms and the stalagmites n stalactites, we went to Rotorua and didn't do a thing there *lol*. YHA rotorua is bad.

Got to see a lot of Wellington as well, we spent quite a few days here, I was sick the first couple of days so we didn't do a lot then. I've had an awesome time, it was so cool to show my dad around, now he knows what I'm talking about when I'm speaking of stuff ard here. :)

goin' travellin'

My dad arrived at 20th of June, and I've been doing my best to take him around Wellington, although I've been sick as and the weather has been pretty bad. It's been ok today though, but I'm really sick... trying to be brave, and not to be too much of a drag. Tomorrow we're going travelling north to Taupo, Rotorua and Waitomo. It'll be great! hopefully I'll be a bit better in the days to come, and hopefully the weather will clear up a bit as well. we were going to go to Kapiti Island today, but the weather wouldn't allow it, and I was sick, so we're going to rebook it for another day. It should be a cool trip as well, if we can pull it off before my dad leaves.
Please, let me get well before long!
So far we've been all around Welli, up to uni and all round town. It feels a bit crazy to have my dad here, like another world meeting my world... It's pretty cool though. Now he can see all the things that I've been talking about. :)

Moving date: 3rd of July!

This is a picture from the party on Saturday, one of them that is. Saturday was wiiicked, we started off at 7pm with a bunch of tequila shots, and kept on prepartying through the all blacks game. We won! Anyway, after that, at about 11pm, George took us all to a house party. Which was wild... we stayed there for a while, and then ended up somewhere else. Good luck? yea, goodluck bar. nice. I stole my first ever beerglass here in Wellington, which was an event.. heh.

Last night we went out to send off Jason, he is leaving to go back to USA soon. I don't know him that well, but we have had some good times. :) I am still completely blown by the fact that he proposed to his girl.. He got her up on stage, played "Little wing", and then he got down on his knee and asked for her hand... what a cutie pie.

hrrm

I seldom edit what I write when i'm drunk, but last night, I think drunk happy Tina had a small visit from drunk mean Tina, and what would to me read: "I hate you", would to others read: Ai heeeit jo... As in Jo, which would be bad. I do not hate Jo, I am just going nuts over my flatmate as usual. My other flatmate, that is. here's the rest of the post, intact, untouched, as it was at 2pm this morning.

It is sunday, I'm all dressed up, I look fabulous, I am drunk again, and I am freee from exams and I have just attended the last gig of Jason. And what do you know, he proposed to his GF tonite!!! on stage!! It was soooo romantic... *SIGH*

Cuba Kebab! Why are you closed!!!? wgat am I gonna eat now!? Ronnny ate the rest of the noodles, I heeeeeeeit hiimm!!!! stuppid mæn! fan heller, kann ikkje venta te eg e kvitt han, jævla parasitt! han ete meg ut av huse! eg kan ikkje bejynna å sei k0r masse han irritere meg!! AAAAARGH! EGO EGO EGO!!!!

It was a good nite. i hope I get some pictures from Renaye.

I love you all. all of you, who are reading this! I love you. I am onsly writing this becayse I am drunk, but it is true, you are my friends and I love you, I could not live without you. *BIG HUG* from tina.

Respect to Ghana

I am done with my exaaaams!!!
And on Tuesday my dad comes to visit me!!!
So much to plan, so much to do, so little time, so much fun!
Had a good time yesterday, watching rugby and partying like hell. It was good as, after all this time, I really needed to let my hair down and have some fun. Good ol' fun! Now it's time to start organising, getting ready to move out, that is, maybe clean my room? After all, my dad is coming so it should look nice. Even though I know he doesn't care about mess. So, I have booked the places for Kapiti island, I have booked an appointment to have an assessment for how much it would be to get my tattoo removed (yeowtsch), and the next step is to book time for dinner at Hede's for me, Jo and Manuel. Our date, the three amigos, the three musketeers.. (a lot of good things come in threes!). I want our flat! but I guess we won't get it before the last week of June, or first week in July. Ah well, MY DAD IS COMING TO VISIT!!!!

Oh, and R-E-S-P-E-C-T to Ghana! I lost $80 on you guys, but it has taught me an important lesson: NEVER underestimate the opposing team. I wish them good luck in the WC. (Oh, sidenote: I may have lost $80, but Pun, Trong's flatmate, he lost $1000. *edited: a couple of hundred* That has to hurt.)

days go by

I've been shot down, my daydreaming doesn't make sence to me anymore. I have to find a new set.. Thank goodness that HGL will be back in my life before long. HGL! Brace yourself my dear friends, once again he shall be in my thoughts, and probably on my blog-pages.
I'm feeling bad cause I haven't been to the gym for ages, and I feel all fat and ugly. Of course that is the normal, but not gymming does not make matters any better. I have to get back in the game.. This job and the flu has kept me from my beloved gym-room. I've been ignoring calls from my job both today and yesterday, my conscience is horrible because of it, so probably I'm working tomorrow *grumble* Would much rather like to stay in and study, but alas! I have to be a good girl and go to work, since they are being slow in finding someone else.

The HANDBAG

Soundtrack: Bodyrockers - I like the way you move

Okay, this deserves an entry.
It's been a while since the Hurricanes vs Crusaders final, but something happened on the following morning that has gone down in history here in New Zealand. Tana Umaga and Chris Masoe from the Hurricanes were out at a pub, and apparently Masoe got annoyed at this guy and hit him. So, in comes Tana, heroicly, beating Masoe around the head with a woman's HANDBAG, to try and calm Masoe down. The result: Masoe started crying, and they were both kicked out of the pub. (for more detailed description of the incident, click HERE.)

Well, this was random enough in itself. However, the story does not end there. The woman's phone was broken, and Umaga replaced it. So, the co workers of the woman persuaded her to sell the handbag and the broken phone on TradeMe. She sold it for $22.750!!! The auction had over a million page views, and over 3000 unanswered questions, HAHA. The story has been all over the news for the last few weeks. There has been no official statement from Umaga.

My my my. These rugby guys of ours. I am glad that the All Blacks' season is back, this year I'm catching one of their games when they come to play in Wellington, All Blacks vs Springbooks. Wuhu!

Ok, let's just get this tag out of the way!

I got tagged by Feli. So, here it goes!

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1. Joanne
2. Trong
3. Ronny
4. Manuel
5. Peter
6. Kristof
7. Gøril
8. Vanessa
9. Renée
10. Odny
11. Wenche
12. Felicia
13. Regina
14. Joe
15. Anette
16. Diego
17. Geeta
18. Katherine
19. Patrick
20. Chandra

Questions:

1. How did you meet #14?
He was mine and Joanne's random flatmate this trimester, who sadly moved out very quickly cause he got a job as an RA. Nice and random dude.

2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
I'd be flatting with someone completely different, and I would only have guy friends! whaah!

3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
What would I do?? I dunno... tell Renée's boyfriend!

4. Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
Ooh... I have NO idea. Could try? Hehe

5. Describe #3.
EEeeeeeeeh... not much to say, so won't say much. That simple.

6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
Haha, yea, she's pretty nice. ;) She's taken though!

7. Tell me something about #7.
She's a little fire-cat, I met her at my folk high school. She's fun, kinda crazy danger chic, but I like her a lot. Currently she is studying to be a journalist, or something of that kind.

8.Do you know anything about #12's family?
Heeps. ^^ She lives now with her mum, dad and a younger sister, I met them all when I went to visit her in Singapore earlier this year. Her dad scares little kids when the mums are not watching! I was hoping for some "live action" when I was living with them, but he behaved quite normally. hmpf. I guess you could say that Kwee is a part of her family as well.

9. What is #8's favourite?
Animals!! of all kinds! Furry and nice little friends. :)

10.What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
I would be a little confused I think. She's quite fond of men.

11. What language does #15 speak?
She speaks Norwegian and English, as far as I know. I don't know whether she can speak any other languages.

12. Who is #9 going out with?
Happily living with her boyfriend for years, Christian.

13. How old is #16 now?
I think he is 30 or 31... not too sure. That is his physical age.

14. When was the last time u talked to #13?
Ages ago!! How is Europe?!

15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
UUuuh, some boyband front figure I imagine?? hehehe

16. Would you date #4?
HAHAHA. Before I got to know him I would have! Nooo, I'm just kidding. He is really nice, I probably would not date him though. He is like my brother, it would be too weird.

17. Would you date #7?
I'm more into guys... anyway, she's taken.

18. Is #15 single?
As far as I know.

19. What's #10's last name?
Askeland! How are you Odny? haven't heard from you for a long time now!

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
Hard to say yes... but hard to say a definite no too. He is a really nice guy, a bit shy for my part though.

21. What schools did #3 go to?
I don't know much about him.. he's at Vic uni now though.

22. Where does #6 live?
He lives with my course coordinator in Wadestown!! Normally he lives somewhere in Germany I think..

23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
He is really nice, on the surface he seems like this really dodgy guy, but he has got layers. And he is amazing at getting beer.

24. What do you think of #13?
A little cutie, a tortured soul sometimes.. I hope she is enjoying her time in Europe now, and will be able to relax more upon her return that what she did before she left.... she has got an amazing capacity to stress. It's a gift. She is selfless, her heart is true, and she will always be a beacon of light to her friends.

25. What do #4 and #19 have in common?
They like movies, they both live in stafford... they are both foriegners and they both like beer.

26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
She is a good friend, and always has something nice and encouraging to say no matter what's up. She is incredibly optimistic, which smudges off on other ppl. Which is nice. :)

My gosh that took long!!

Now, the day is mine!
I tag Regina, Renée, Geeta, Gøril (make use of your space!) and Wenche!

Meditative tapes

Soundtrack: Thomas Dybdahl - make a mess of yourself

My friend Diego gave me these soundfiles to help me sleep and to help me concentrate on my studies. Apparently they are sounds that activate your brain in different ways... I've allways been a bit sceptical to tapes that are supposed to enhance this and that, and hypnotice you into sleep and all kinds of crap. However, I am going to try it tomorrow to get through a chapter that is hard and boring. And tonite, I'm gonna try the sound-sleep one. Hopefully, they can do no harm. So, Jo: If I am being unusually odd the next couple of days, call a therapist or something. Hopefully I won't be brainwashed into joining an UFO sect or something....

weekend

Soundtrack: Gurtz - Caviar

I guess this has been an eventful weekend. When broke one's expectations go drastically down, and therefore everything is appreciated a lot more. I did a psychology experiment on Thursday, which gave me two free movie tickets! wuhu! So on Friday we went to see X-men 3. I thought it was pretty all right, it was good fun. Not too much of a story line, but who cares. :) Effects were great. Then on Saturday, Travis was kind enough to lend me money to go to the LOTR exhibition in Te Papa. Yay!! It was pretty awesome, I must admit that I could have spent a lot more time gawking at the drawings and stuff, but since I'm also bringing my dad there, I will do that next time. ^^ I loved all the costumes! Sooo pretty lah... Thanx Trav! Must see the movies again soon. :) Holidays! When my exams finish, I will do that.
On Wednesday (just the day after tomorrow), my paycheck will arrive. No more money worries! ahh.. thank goodness for that. I have to get better at saving money in the first half of the year... this thing happened last year as well. Not good.

cut, burned and bruised

dishwashing

I've been working for 8 hours today. And we didn't have that many customers. tomorrow will be hell, there are over twice as many customers... *SIGH* As grateful as I am for the opportunity to make some cash, I don't think I will want the ongoing position. Mopping with a mop that was introduced in the 60's is killing my back. The growing piles of dishes are bringing me down. Yes... I think I can't go on with this job. I just hope my first paycheck will come quickly.

Better get some rest so I can do some last minute mugging up for my exam tomorrow.

hurricanes lost...

As it was so eloquently put in Wallace and Gromit: the bounce is gone from my bungey. The hurricanes lost yesterday. It was very foggy, and not so good to see what was going on on the field, but they lost none the less. We were watching it at the loaded hog, with some ppl, quite a nice little bunch of staffordians and some Germans on the side, hehe. After the game Trong got us some beer because he had put money on the Crusaders to win by 1-7 points.

I've been daydreaming almost the whole day. Tucked safely inside my own little world where everything that I want is within reach.. It's comfortable, but a bit unnerving as well, as I have an exam on Tuesday. Right now I'm downloading heeps of german music, my tactic is to listen to stuff with german texts tomorrow.

The Dishwasher

I woke up. I went to school. I went to student job search. I applied for a job. I got the job. I worked from 7 till 10pm and I will work four days next week! YEE!!! Job!! Money!! No more despair, I can pay my bill and everything, I don't have to fret about my money! Ahh.... Such a relief. I am the new kitchenhand at portland hotel thorndon. It's not a lucrative job, but at least it brings home some cash. I'm quite high today.

Apart from that, I'm hooked on pride and prejudice... I've been watching it three times already! Man... it's becoming an obsession like harry potter.. help! I can't go back to the elizabethan time, and I can't live such a life, with all the beautiful words, and I can't find a guy like that! Not this lifetime at least! What am I going to do?!

It's such a beautiful movieeeee....

I took Manuel's advice and went out for a walk to get some fresh air. Nothing like a walk to clear your mind, get things sussed in the brain. It's time to take control of my life. I've switched off my cat, from now on it's my own job to bring the cash. I shall go to student jobsearch tomorrow and get a job of some sort. At the same time it struck me that my exam is in only four days.. time to take action and rehearse some German. If my test today went crap, it's only because I didn't study enough for it. Hard cold fact. I have packed up my moon piece, from now on I'm wearing the dragon around my neck for a while. No piece can help bring beneficial change, that is my job as well. I have to change things around.
For now I'm gonna give a f that I'm getting red spots all over. At least they treat me well, they don't itch that bad, and in fact most of the day I don't notice them at all. Just give it some time and see if there's a change. At least if I die my parents can sue the doctor that "treated" me.

nothing.

Everything is going wrong nowadays. I'm feeling pretty low at the moment. I'm sick and I spent $60 that I don't have on a doctor's appointment and medicines that didn't fix anyting at all. My money will take forever to get here, and even when I get them I have to wait another half week before I can access them because my netbank sent my visa card to the wrong address, it was sent back and now they're saying that IF the card comes back to them they will send it to the right address... *sigh* I got a B+ for the easiest assignment this year, and I did bad on my test today. so good bye to the only A+ that I ever had the chance to get. The worst of all is that most of these things are not only probably, but most likely all my own foult. I don't know what it is that I've got, but I know now that it isn't scabies, and it's not an allergic reaction because I haven't been eating anything unusual, it's probably not bedbugs because I have steam washed my entire bed, and still I'm getting red spots everywhere. I've done so much for nothing. I'm really tired. I feel like a song by Nick Cave. I'm going to bed and I'm staying there untill June.

OVEN!!

Soundtrack: Underworld - you bring light in

We finally got the oven! So, the whole afternoon has been devoted to baking various things. It feels so great to have an oven! Being able to bake! But now we realise how small our kitchen is... We have to find a better place for it than the table. Big decisions.

Our oven and the first produce. :)

The sophisticated bunch: Eating homemade pizza on the floor, listening to Chopin and discussing German composers.. hehe.

My crew. My lovelies. Cleaning up all my mess that took me two and a half hour to create. you gotta love 'em.

essay again

soundtrack: Fat freddy's drop - flashback (jazzanova's breathe easy mix)

I'm trying to write my essay. I have two days to do it. So what do I do? the last half hour or so I've been taking pictures of my eyes, trying to determine what colour they are. And I have reached a conclusion. The more light that shines on them, the more yellow they are. So I thought I'd just put that on my blog, just so I can have some feeling of accomplishment today too...

Looks like it's gonna be a really calm and uneventful weekend. not entirely though: My hopeless flatmate did the dishes yesterday after cooking, even though I did not ask him to. I think Manuel has a positive effect on him, because every time Manuel is here, he behaves totally different. Hmm... strange. I've already started packing. Can't wait for my dad to get here!! I talked to him yesterday, he's booked the ticket, n he's arriving on the 20th of June, exactly one month from now! I wanna plan a nice little itinerary, so that he gets to see a lot of nice stuff. Definitely gonna take him to Rotorua to see the Geysirs, and he wants to see Hobbiton. ^_^ ooh! Let time pass quickly!

flatmate blues

These days I'm spending and increasing amount of time being annoyed by my flatmate. He's like a brain tumour. So... this post is going to just be a rant about him, be warned, if you cannot be bothered, DON'T read on.

He is like a piece of furniture, always at the same place, which is here (snarl) and always saying the same things over and over and over.... "are you going out?" "Hello?" "what are you making?" "did you go shopping?" grrrr.... Why is it sooooo important to know at all times who is in when you're not even going to talk to them!? every - single - time.. Can't you see that when I'm putting on shoes I'm going out?! YES, when you have four bags of food, you have gone shopping!! C-O-N-T-E-X-T

He never contributes ANYTHING to this flat! he eats and eats, but can NEVER buy bread when we're running out, he NEVER shops! He just sits there, expecting to get everything in his lap! He uses our stuff without asking, taking it for granted that we want to share shampoo and body soap with him. What's that?? I am still not over it, and he still steals my body soap!!!
He can't clean! He can't cook! He destroys our frying pan by using a fork in it, he destroys my strainer by leaving it in a pan with water so that it rusts... He just can'd do the dishes when he's done eating, he does them half way!! AARRGGHHHH!!! He cant even take out the friggin trash when it is sitting on the floor right in front of the door! NOT ONCE has he taken out the trash unless I specifically told him to. And he is TWENTYFIVE!!

He is always more than willing to eat/drink stuff that we offer him, but he never ever gives anything back. Manuel got him beer yesterday, and then suggested that he should get some wine for friday. His response: "I don't like wine..."
Enough. Enough! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH ALREADY!

I'm going insane. Being alone with him just makes me hate him more. Ok, I don't hate him, I just strongly dislike him. Give me the strength to put up with him for another month!

Oh, and happy birthday bloggie! 1 year old today!! :)

Happy 17. May, everyone!

Soundtrack: Bjørnstjerne Bjørnson - Ja vi elsker dette landet

Another year, another 17. May spent away from home. Today's mission: trying to finish my essay, and trying to stay sober and stay away from parties. Missons complete: 0. Peter is leaving tomorrow, and showed up with a whole army of Germans, so again, Norway was invaded by Germany. On 17. May! ah, the tragedy.. Well, thei're nice ppl, so it's ok I think. At least I had a really good celebration, a couple of beers, and then to bed? My essay has now 1800 words, so it's ok. I did some good work today.

*pats myself on the sholder*

Well done me, and happy 17. May!

The Norwegian anthem

Earthquake

This time I'm sure I felt it. Last time there was a big one, I was asleep, and only dreamt of it... Just now, about an hour ago there was another big one north of NZ, but closer this time. Goodness... Mother Earth is grumpy.. all volcanoes are at level 1 alert... maybe I get to see an eruption while I'm here? We'll see.

Earthquake this evening

Soundtrack: Jaga Jazzist - Airborne

So, this weekend has been full of events as usual, and as usual, not many of these events have been related to schoolwork... I went for a party on Friday, it was the birthdayparty of a french girl who lives in Stafford House. We went with the group of people that we know but only hang out with sometimes, it was nice to get to know them better. It was really fun, I even learned how to scrum... hehe. Useful knowledge. On Saturday, the dynamic trio that will be united in a flat next trimester (me, Jo and Manuel) went out clubbing for the first time ever. :) We went to our former flatmate Joe's apartment to preparty, something that did not work very well because of the policies in Mckenzies... It's a pretty sucky hostel. After that we went to GoodLuck bar on Cuba, which was really good. It could have been an epic event, had it not been for Joe, who was so drunk that he couldn't stand on his feet... and decided to stand on Jo's feet instead, causing her shoeheal to break. Pretty shoes... all gone..


Then on Sunday, which actually was devoted to my essay, this random guy that I agreed to tutor that day called me at 2pm(and woke me up..) and insisted on meeting up at Kelburn library. I already told him that I might be too tired on Sunday, but I guess he took it as a joke. I realised that tutoring in Norwegian is a real drag, although it is not that difficult. I just hate having to talk like the TV-hosts do, it sounds all fake and disgusting, but that is the by-the-book way of talking, so no choice. He was doing pretty well though.

Today I've been doing some reading for my essay, and this evening I cut Manuel's hair. A task that was not as easy as it sounds.. We didn't manage to get a machine, so I had to do it all by hand. I must say, the result was not that bad though... I expected it to be a lot more shitty than it turned out... ^_^

NOW, I'm going to have a hot shower and go to bed early to be rested for tomorrow. Gnite!

picture

Funny how amazingly warm and fuzzy your brain goes when someone likes your work... so when someone contacted me on my photoblog and said that they wanted to use one of my pictures because it inspired him deeply, I couldn't say no. The result, a couple of days later is this:

For the original picture, click here.

Everything is in harmony in our flat now for once, cause now everything is sorted out. We know what's gonna happen next trimester, and everyone is cool with it.

So now I'm gonna go to bed all warm and fuzzy inside my brain, feeling completely unacomplished in my studying, and sleep tight until the morning when I have to get up early and have a marketing lecture. Must stop being lazy, or things will go bad...

fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy

satisfied spider

The spider has secured the web, caught the fly, now satisfied it can leave the web to collect dust and disappear.

sometimes it takes a lot of work not to hurt someone...

Soundtrack: The National Bank - blue as we like it

Lies are like spiderwebs. They spread out from the middle, and every single strand of it need to be attatched for the web to work. It's a fragile web, and a breath of wind can destroy it. It needs a spider to maintain it: the liar. The liar makes sure that all the ends are tied up at all times, and this can be quite a formidable task... At the same time the spider has to be careful, not to get caught in the web himself. So tiring... Even though the web that I spun today is quite small, I'm really finding it a task to maintain it. I have tied up the ends, but one end is not yet tied very tight, and I am afraid that it will break. I can't wait for it to get all old and dusty and forgotten.

hurricanes game!

Soundtrack: Björk - the pleasure is all mine

We went for the Hurricanes vs the Reds yesterday, serious fun! Facepaint and all.. hehe. We had a ritual here, painting our faces, and had to force Ronny to paint some of his face. No way was he going with us without paint! He came 'round. Then we went to the game and I got to see Nonu and Umaga live for the first time! Amazing fun! Thankfully the Hurricanes won, even though it wasn't a great game. My hottie, Nonu was playing so I was all happy. The guys were happy about the cheerleaders.. hehe. Something for everyone. After the game we went out for some celebrating. :) had a laaate as night, went to bed at 7:3o ish....

Oh and by the way: on thursday there was a huuuge earthquake on near Tonga, it was a 7,9 one and coastal communities up north evacuated their citicens... pretty weird. There was a tsunami warning, and because international media blew the news up, ppl were worried and left their homes. And lo and behold, now suddenly the government has realised that New Zealand would be sooo dead if there came a real big tsunami. No shit... there didn't seem to be much control here. My dad actually knew about this way before I did, probably cause I was sleeping, and just felt the tremours. I thought it was one of the regular ones.

The Gymoholic

As my funds are running low, I'm experiencing the same work-out curve as last year, when the whole walkaholic thing set in before exams... I'm addicted to the gym. I love the gym. I'm there wayy too much... Yesterday and today, and probably tomorrow too to keep Jo company. my my my... At least it is a somewhat healthy obsession, and hopefully this time I'll be able to see some progress. Since I started training last year in October, I can't say that the reflection in the mirror has changed much.

Been doing German all day, but mostly just for fun and I find that when I procrastinate in German I'm still learning, which is a somewhat dangerous discovery. Reading comics in German is still procrastinating.

I guess I should try to kick in the high gear tomorrow and start some essay, even though I've got a lot of time. Try to do better than last time. That is always a good goal.

a rare occurance: hangover

Soundtrack: Paul Desmond & Dave Brubeck - Take Five

On a tuesday. I am sooo embarrased of myself... Thus I decided to blog, displaying to the world just how embarassed I am and just to make it even worse so that I never do something this stupid again. I can't believe it.. I'm becoming more and more of a teenage drunk the older I get! Maybe it's like a last fling or something before I get too old to act this way. Maybe.. I just know that I'm having so much fun! What am I gonna do.... just keep on going? As long as my grades are ok? Study harder? And play on? Maybe...

Tina und Manuel: Comrades in booze.

Apologized to Jason today, just cause we were kinda abrupt and rude, barging in on him.. He thought it was hilarious. I guess we should consider ourselves lucky that some ppl have humour. And are not too sore about things. Haven't seen the others today. It was fun though, the night ended at about 3am.

Mental note: Never on a Monday.

Drunk happy Tina is typing again...Oh my goodness... Mauel shows up at 8:30 and says that I should come to this international party, and that it's the nast night with Ina an that she will be really sad If I don't come to the party.. So I guess I'm going to the partyright? Anyway, we make a total fool of ourselves, barging into Jason's flat and taking photos and all.... really bad.. Ina must be sooo embarrassed by us. (I'm sure she is). So we show up at the party, wayy too late just as I predicted it's a really sad party. We end up gettting whasted at some irish pub.... on a Monday.... it's getting worse. Jo, if I woke u up at 3am I apologize!

This is Me and Ina, she is embarrassed cause we just barged in on her guitar session with Jason O..... Poor girl...

Weekend

Soundtrack: Gotan Project - Celos

Have had a quiet and nice weekend, for a change. On Friday I went out to Murphy's with Geeta, Manuel and a girl called Ina that has been here for a week now. Nice to have some girlpower for a change. :) Saturday we went to see a movie called the Matador, which was funny. A nice little movie to just relax on a saturday evening, for once. N then we went to our old time favourite. Espressoholic. Ahh.. the good ol' days with kuni n his four girlfriends, and chilling with the group. *sigh* I think no one can resist that place. And today, I've been sick. Soar throat, fever, feeling sorry for myself.. calling mum... the lot. Pat woke me up at 14:30, wanting to borrow our frying pan, and I think he was kinda surprised that he woke me up, and I was kinda surprised that I was the first one to wake up... this flat is weird. Two ppl who sleep till evening and one that is never here.

I'm kinda tired.
Time for bed again.

all I want

I just want to sleep.
I just want to get through the day not worrying about not being appreciated, I just want to feel safe that life will bring me what I need. I just want back my faith, that everything sorts itself out. I want my heartrate to go down. I don't want to be afraid of change. I want to get fit. I want an oven.

Why do I worry so much?

I need assurance.

PMS (take it as a warning)

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - Love Letter

To long for something that is achievable if one dares to go for it, and to be realistic about what has been

I just finished watching Bridget Jones: The edge of reason, and now I'm really depressed... Why can't I fall in love with someone nice? someone who hits on me when I go out, who seems really nice and who actively seeks me up? Why do I always have to find some kind of mistake with them that just makes me leave in silence? Why do I have to be so picky..
And my new flatmate is driving me slowly insane. With Jo gone like all the time, it's just getting more and more worse. He is so monotone, so boring... And the worst of it is; he is a really NICE guy.
(Thatisapartfromstealingshampooandsoap
andtoothpasteandmakingdisgustingsoundsinthebathroom
andburpingallthetimeandnevereatinganythingbutnoodles
andsuggestingthathewantsmetocookandnevereverleavingtheflat
andalwaystalkingabouttrivialthingsandthingslikethat).
Please, PLEASE, let there be a change.













Other than that it's been nice to have a day off. Off from working like insane on my assignment and having an average resting pulse at about 110... I went with Jo and Trong to Satay Kingdom. Nice as, as always. Fish Curry is to die for.. Nah, rather to kill for.
Got out some movies, and I'm ready to be serious about my studies now. I sincerely hope. So So I'm gonna sulk for a little while longer, and then I'm gonna hit the books.

assignment...

It is now 2:34 am and I was going to sleep but I'm so stressed that my heart is racing on and I can't sleep I'm just thinking of the assignment and all the things I should be doing and worrying about the grade so I decided to give a shit about sleep and just study no use in trying to relax and whasting time like that when I can't sleep anyway. This is bad.

Look familiar anyone?

Soundtrack: Recloose - Why I Otta

Guess what happened yesterday:
Yes, a good ol fashion fire drill. Ahh, I miss those days in Vic house. Getting brutally awaken in the middle of the night, and freezing outside while waiting for the firemen to recover the item that had been microwaved for too long.. Nah, not really. Yesterday we had our first false alarm of Stafford house. And we had to walk back up...

I'm working, working, freaking out as usual and believing that I will fail the course and be kicked out of my education... Oh, the drama. If I fail this assignment that means hard work not to fail the paper. But: I have resolved that I will work harder from now on. I can't go on like it have up until now. I shall continue to play hard, but less time will be spent on procrastination and being lazy.

Next week we start again. I must say, next trimester I want to try and get my German classes squeezed into 3 days.. I hate having to travel up and down the whole week. So much time seems to vanish just in travelling...
Now I have to finish my assignment.

Survived!

I survived my dentist appointment, and can happily say that I don't remember any of it at all! Lovely... :)
Joanne came with me, and it all went very fast. Indeed, very fast. It said on the info that I got that the sedation blocks out your memory, so it seems like it goes very fast. And it did, it seemed like it took about 3 minutes. I love my dentist...

***HEARTY SIGH***

Assignment

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - sorrowful wife

Got the dentist appointment tomorrow. My nerves are still hanging in there, I have no Idea why but I'm thankful all the same.

Quiet, thoughtful and a bit melancholy tonite. I think it's called nostalgic...

I know lives, I could miss
Without a Misery -
Others - whose instant's wanting -
Would be Eternity -

The last - a scanty Number-
'Twould scarcely fill a Two -
The first - a Gnat's Horizon
Could easily outgrow -

Emily Dickinson

ok.. I have no life

Soundtrack: Björk - hidden place

It is really evident, when one has nothing to do. Suddenly, u have time to write about absolutely everything that happens every day...

I went jogging in my new shoes today, and it was kinda horrible... they need a lot of time, I think, to become comfy. I have blisters so big that they are almost bigger than my toes... I have no idea how to soften the shoes. Any suggestion will be appreciated.

Apart from that, I maxed out the traffic on my connection, and actually got some work done. And some new procrastinating: I created a scrapbook of all the plays I've gone to here in New Zealand, and I will put in nice pictures from my time here as well. Must go see more plays..
And, now I have Cheech and Chong to look forward to. :)

Snore

Soundtrack: Still, The National Bank - Half blind

This is like the creepiest shopping mall display I've seen in a while...

Slow days, haven't done much today. Gonna max out my internet traffic tomorrow and be without connection for the entire Sunday, maybe then I can get something done. It's worth a try. Gonna tuck in early for a change. (early = 1am) Some Emily Dickinson on the bedside should set me up for some nice dreams. ^_^

I am so cold...

Soundtrack: The National Bank - Half Blind

I AM SO COLD! Why won't they turn up the heat a bit... BRR! I am really quite bored now. Really. The next 7 days are devoted to my assignment, haven't done much today, but still feel proud as that I started.. hehe. It's gonna take some work though.. and I can't munch! Damn, I always munch when I am working, but my toothache is lingering, like a grey shadow over everything that I do. I will be sooo happy when I'm finished on Thursday. Still, I'm scared stiff. so mentally exhausting to go around and prodding all these feelings of fear all the time... And a total of all my friends don't get me at all. At least Jo doesn't laugh at me.

Today we went out for a dinner and a show. Nice.. we went to Istana Malaysia for dinner, which was nice, and then afterwards we went to Reading to see Iceage 2. Nice evening. :) Feels strange not to go out on a Friday... and I don't think I'm going out tomorrow either, not with this toothache, so it will be my first weekend since I go here that I'm not going out. weird.. but it feels nice too.

Buhbye shoes... U served me well!

Soundtrack: Sergei Rachmaninov - Konzert für Klavier und Orchester nr.2 c-moll op 18


So, as I said I completely toasted our shoes. and today was the sad day of parting with my old shoes... They have served me well indeed. If u feel like going down memory lane with me, go to my archive and look up October 16 last year when I bought them. So young... So full of life...
They were the one who changed my life, they helped me change from a couch-potato to a more healthy individual, who works out several times a week. They marked a milestone in my life that way. I shall always remember them.

So today I went and bought some new shoes. I can't not run anymore, at least now I know how to wash my shoes. You learn from mistakes. Yeah, as you may understand, not a whole lot is happening nowadays. I'm procrastinating as hard as I can, succeeding in a way with that. Was supposed to go for ballroom dancing today, but I actually hurt my anckle yesterday, so not reallly fit to be dancing ard trying to look gracious today. Mattis is havin a slumberparty, introducing Bearly to the rest of the gang. Hope they will keep it down so I can sleep.. hehe.

24 Bruises! (I counted)

Soundtrack: Faith No More - Easy

PAINTBALLL!!!!

Paintball is absolutely awesome!!! Spent about 3 hours on the field today, shooting at my flatmates and friends and getting shot at. Running in the bush and crouching down behind tyres and all... The first 15 minutes I was scared shit to get shot, and then I got shot, and that was it. It hurts like shit, but only for about 3 seconds. So: KILL'EM ALL! Man, that was fun. At the end, to empty our guns, we had a mexican stand-off, where we stood ground and just emptied our guns at each others. pain... immense pain.

When we got back we put our shoes in the washer. Aaand... They're all melted now. I don't know how to tell Ronny...

tired

Up until 6am because I had a tiny toothache...
T_T Scared. Have appointment in about 1 week..
Hope it will die down again like last time, so I don't have to reshedule. Will go on the 20th anyway, so ...

T_T

Holiday, barbecue and stuff

Soundtrack: Nina Simone - Black is the colour of my true love's hair

This weekend, as usual, there was partying. This time to celebrate the fact that our holiday has started! Easter holiday here I come! writing a 5000 word assignment... I got my German assignment back today and got a B+, cause I didn't take it seriously enough. that sucks, but at least I have a chance to resubmit. I'll do that. Have spent a whole our correcting my grammar and vocab, and was banging my head against the desk in despair when finally Manuel came to my aid. Thank goodness.. it's nice to have a private tutor. ^_^



This friday we had a bbq. It wasn't one of large scale, but it worked. A bit windy, but no rain, so good one. :) I made some awesome (forgive my modesty) teriyaki salmon packages, have been craving fish for some while so it was good as. After bbq we had a preparty in our flat and then hit the town.

Then on Saturday, Geeta asked me if I wanted to go out. Finally! A girl's night! We met up in her flat, then after a short trip to Mckenzies (dodgy as!) we went back and met up with Geeta's friend from Singapore (afraid to spell her name, in fear of being extremely rude and insulting the entire Indian world). We crashed an Indian party and it was really cool, there were free drinks and lots of Indian music all night! We danced the night away and then went to Gogo's for the first time ever. I quite liked it there.

So, now it is time to get serious and do some studying... I can't believe how lazy I am.

I love my dentist!

Soundtrack: Faithless - Salva Mea

I can't believe this! Here I was, chillin' out listening to loud as music, celebratin that my holiday is officially started, and the phone rings. IT'S MY DENTIST! He called to acknowledge my appointment that I booked yesterday, and wanted to know how I was doing, and then he went through the procedure with me, how the sedation works an all, and told me to have confidence in the sedation. I feel like a queen. All warm and fuzzy, my dentist really cares about me. :) I'm gonna get through it.

The least thing I can do in return is to give him credit:
It is Jeff Jones, at Symes de Silva house on Courtenay.

small update

Soundtrack: Massive Attack - Name Taken

Got woken up by a quick earthquake this morning.

I'm heading for bed, but thought I'd throw in a small update before I go. Have had a busy few days, and still I have an essay to finish by Friday!! Oh well, it shouldn't be impossible, but not that easy either. The topic is a bit boring.

This weekend I've been partying AGAIN. There was a Karaoke night in Stafford on Friday, and I sang Aha - Take on me. Horribly... *L* Ah well, it was good fun. Saturday I went out with Patrick, Manuel and my new flatmate, Ronny. He is really cool, I like him. :) He is definitely much more subdued than Joe, but he is good fun. I'm craving for girls... I'm hanging out with guys all the time! I'm really funny these days. I'm completely surrounded by people, but in a funny way I still feel a bit lonely. And afraid of being alone.. A lot of ppl will be going away in the next two weeks, so for all of my friends who are staying in Wellington: prepare to be bugged!! I'll show up when u least expect it and demand your attention. Everything is always changing and I guess the pace in which they are changing is freaking me out a bit..
So I went out for a walk just now and tried to calm my mind to focus on my essay, but didn't really succeed that well. My thoughts are flying away as much now as before I went out.

New flatmate

Soundtrack: Erasure - A little respect


So we've got a new flatmate. He's Norwegian, and his name is Ronny (same as my brother) and he is from Stavanger (same as my brother!). A bit spooky. *L* He seems really nice, but compared to Joe I must say that this guy is ultra shy. I was not allowed to take a clear shot of him, so the microwave was kind of a compromise.. hehe. (w0w, looking at this picture I realise that our microwave needs a serious cleaning.....) A bit early to say, but it seems like it's gonna be smooth sailing living with this guy. :) Which is nice. I can get some studying done now.

Tonite I went to see Geeta and we went to Midnight espresso for a chat and some chowder, and then we met up with Joe. Was nice to just sit there and chat about this and that, and now I'm nervous that tomorrow I'm gonna be super tired, cause It's already 1:15am and I have a class at 8:30... Ah well. I'll do my best to stay awake tomorrow. :)

Now I really have to go to sleep, or I'm gonna be in trouble. Later everyone!

D

Man... I am one emotionally disturbed girl these days. It might be some serious PMS (which it is, cause I'm stuck on my Product Market Structure, PMS for short in Marketing), but I'm like a human rollercoaster. Joe has moved out, and already I miss him like hell. And he's been trying to "brainwash"me to say that I'm in love with Justin and Manuel. I really like Manuel, he is a nice guy. But that's that. I want to be his friend, but I don't want more than that. I'm still hung up on Wes..

so to let off some steam, I decided to go for a run. Asking for some sort of sign. And the funniest thing happened. I decided to go up the dreaded Aurora Terrace, ALL THE WAY. So I did. And what did I see at the top of Aurora Terrace? Yea, a SIGN all right.. *L* As I was all panting and happy that I was reaching the top, there was a huge house which said: WESLEY. And I went up Wesley road to Salamanca before jogging home down Salamanca and the Terrace.

I have got to meet this guy again.

Apart from this, I had a good weekend. On Saturday I went to see a play called "Mum's Choir" with Manuel. It was good as. :) Then we met up with Joe and Pat went to see a history of violence at reading, which sucked, so bad that it was good for a laugh...

Last two days I've been working at the Interislander, doing surveys onboard. Exhausting!!!

...

Release me from this longing,
teach me how to live alone.
Why is it so hard to feel complete
and safe, on my own?

If solitude is a habit,
something that can be learned,
then teach me how to practise it
so I no longer will burn.

The perfect night?

Soundtrack: Chopin - Music of the night

My night: Chopin on the stereo, Rosé Shiraz wine, M&Ms and a gruelling hard chapter of marketing that has to be finished and understood by tomorrow. No mercy. Hard cold math is blended with a soothing surrounding to appear more inviting.
It isn't really working.

Lucky that I've got wish-m&ms.. *L*

Joe! Don't leave!

I'm beginning to settle in quite nicely. Our flat is still small and the rules are still too strict, but I like my flatmates and I can forsee a good year. There is actually a HUGE benefit to having Joe as a flatmate; he brings home tonnes of cute guys! I love that! I hope that he will stay here. He has got an interview tomorrow with unicomm, he might be moving there to fill a position as an RA. I'm so used to him now. don't want him to move. :'(

Yesterday he brought home a total of 4 guys, and we all were just chilling in the kitchen, drinking beer. They asked me to come out, but for once I managed to say no. I had studying in mind, but ended up with a pirated version of Pride & Prejudice and a good night's sleep.

Today I've even jogged! Feel so good.. I have kinda worked out my shedule, so things are settling down and I'm getting into the rythm of life. No trip to Northland, but I reckon I'd do good to study some instead. Or allow myself to be dragged out on Saturday by Joe. :) We'll see.

Fat Freddy's Drop in the park

Soundtrack: Fat Freddy's Drop - Live in Waitangi Park 2006




Oh My God. Words cannot describe...
I am in love with the band. The way the trombone-player shook his ass in his fancy white pants and yellow/pink jacket with a sunscreen anno 1988... *LOL* He rocked my socks! The cute as singer witht the Amazing voice... The mood, all the ppl not being able to stand still...

It was truly amazing.

Another blissful day in the park. I am soooo in love. These guys are local! I didn't know, they come from Lyall bay!!

All the while I was standing right in front of the stage, music pumping through me, I was thinking that if this was the last thing I heard in my life, it wouldn't be so bad. L. O. V. E -love

St Patricks day

Whoop Whoop. Another excellent excuse to go partying, and I grabbed it. I kinda crashed Joe's party-crashing... Or rather: I was a co-crasher. It worked out pretty well. Come to think of it, I've been out every single week-end since I arrived here. Hm. We started out with a whole bunch of ppl, but when we came to cuba, everything kinda dissolved... Some guys wanted to go to Bodega, and I was just like: Bodega!? That's a bogan place! They ended up trying it out anyway, and soon realised that I was right. *sigh* Listen to the locals. (newbies)..

In any case it was a good night. And a cheap night. :) Ended up with Sophie and Duncan from the hostel last year, which was a bit weird since I really don't know them. But now that we don't live together, every last year hostel-mate is a friend. Weird eh?
Anyway, the sweetest thing was that Joe called to check up on me. Awww... :) He was concerned that I was alone. He is a really nice guy. Hope he isn't going to Cumberland house.

So now I'm trying hard to sober up before the concert that starts at 1, Fat Freddy's Drop!!! YEEE!

life

Soundtrack: Sinead O Connor - Nothing compares

I used to like having a crush too, Luke. Nowadays it just makes me feel down. Reminds me of how complicated the whole world is and how my network is soo full of holes right now. I'm probably not going to see this guy again. He is a friend of a friend of Anette's, and I'm not that close with her yet, and everything is just complicated. And I think my Northland trip is going down the drain cause ppl don't wanna drive anyway... Which means it might be a month or more till I even go partying with Anette again and so on and so forth. He'll disappear out of my head, and I'll be back to my old boring predictable self again.

One thing I want to keep up: Going to Sandwiches every wednesday.

Hung up

No Feli, Honey cola is not my new love. Actually, it's this guy that I'm hung up on now. Can u believe it? THIS GUY. He's not my type, I've spoken to him a total amount of ONE time, (ok, it was more than just five minutes, more like an hour or a bit more.. but STILL), and yet I can't get him out of my head! It's ridiculous!!!! I've met him ONCE!! I hardly know his name!

I'm becoming totally irrational. Joe is making me freak out about being single, with all his talk of dating and chicks and one night stands and blablablablabla...

someone help me..

Phoenix Honey Cola

Soundtrack: The Black Seeds - Sit there

See it?
Drink it!
Think it.
Smell it.
Feel it.
Love it.
Live it.

This ladies and gentlemen is my life between here and the 24th of April. This is the essence of my very existence between now and then. Hours will be spent on it, and everything about it. It will be on my lips, whether literally or figuratively for 6 whole weeks. Prepare to be nagged to death about it. So: don't bother learning the name of it, u will know it sooner than u wish or hope for anyway.

In any case

Soundtrack: Craig Armstrong - Wake up in New York

This here is our flat. Residents: Tina, Joanne and Joseph. It's quite an ok place, if it wasn't for the circumstances and the scary as kitchen... It gives us electric shocks all over the place. Having an electrician to look at it on Monda, and hopefully he will sort it out. My room is nice, and I've got a view over Thorndon and I can see the hills and so on. I was fearing a view of another building, so I'm quite satisfied in a way.

I'm seeing more and more of Anette, and the other Anette and the ppl. Probably I'll hang out more with the Scandinavian crowd this year. They are all quite nice, I just don't know them that well since I spent most of my time with other ppl last year. I had them all down for kinda shallow ppl that were a bit alouf, but now that I know them a bit better I realise that I was very wrong about that. It's nice to be wrong every once in a while. And another thing: I'm going to Northland in 2 weeks! Yai! I'll get to go on a boat cruise and all! It's with the Norwegian Association, and I'm trying to get Jo and Trong a place too. Will take loads of pics when I go. :) Lots to look forward to. Fat Freddy's drop next saturday, trip to Northland... Assignments and hand-ins.. Jobsearching... ;) Just tryin to keep the spirit up.

Thank you my dearies for all the support. :) *Muakz*

more complaining

I'm not settling in as I thought I would... It's so strange, all last trimester I was jogging past here and looking forward to moving in, and now I just wish I was somewhere else. Anywhere else... There is no oven, and the three of us are so different in the way we eat that trying to have a joint food budget is not really working out. Jo is away half the time and I'm stuck here with someone that I don't know and really can't figure out. I feel like I'm starting all over again... I just wanna be settled.

On top of that I hate the feeling of being controlled all the time. There is so little freedom here. Jo is lucky that she's got somewhere else to go if she wants to.

SALMONELLA DUB in the park, March 5

It was G-R-E-A-T GREAT! The weather was nice as, warm and sunny. I wasn't sick from going out on Saturday night. It was LOUD AS. There were tonnes of ppl dancing on the grass, in the end I couldn't help myself and surrended to them. It was bliss. I LOVE Salmonella Dub, and I hereby promise that in the future nothing will stop me from going to concerts with them. Price, exams, handins..... NOTHING! I'm sold.

Singapore

So yea, I went to Singapore as well after I finished my stay in Malaysia. That was like a continuation of my extreme shopping in Malaysia.. I stayed with Felicia, my friend from the first trimester here in NZ. One night was also spent with my friend Regina, who was here on the same program as Feli. Singapore was totally awesome. I didn't know much about any Asian countries before I left, so I wasn't sure what to expect. What I had in store was some really hardcore sightseeing and shopping. ^_^

We went to some clubs the night i arrived, and I must say, clubs in Singapore are much more elaborate than clubs here. They go all the way, offering the full clubbing experience. I was a bit too tired from my bussing all day, so it was a short night. I went to the Changi Chapel and Museum, which was the thing that I requested was put on the itinerary before I came. It was good and interesting. I know now that we were lucky to be occupied by Germans during WW2 and not by Japanese...

Then we went to see Regina dance. It was sooo good!!!! I loved it! There was 9 pieces, she danced in 4 of them. I felt like a regular pirate, stealing shots of her and the dances when she was performing. I got some good shots of the bollywood dance, and I filmed the last piece. Hmmm this is a public blog... maybe I shouldn't admit it openly. Anyway, it was good as.
I went to Sentosa Island with Regina, in spite of the fact that she had a really sore throat and could not talk much. Poor thing. I enjoyed Sentosa, but it was a tad too touristy for me. Not in that sence, I know that a lot of places in town are touristy, but it's not made entirely for tourists. Like Chinatown, which is a huge tourist magnet, I loved it there. BUT: My subject is tourism, and for that I like to see all sides of a place. ^_^ Chinatown was good for shopping. And eating!

there was so much that I did that It's hard to remember all the things that I did there...

UPS:

Going to the Geylang district with Feli and her dad, and eating a fresh Durian. It was actually really good. At the same time I felt that I got to see the private and hidden part of Singapore, the place where Singaporeans go and tourists stay away from. Feli said that the district would be destroyed by hordes of tourists. She is absolutely right.

Regi's dance. And meeting the families. I went to stay with Regi's family for a day, and it was nice. She lives in an apartment just oposite IKEA.. It was a nice place with a shared swimming pool and the lot. :)

Shopping like mad.. getting a new handphone that I like more and more each day.. :D I guess Feli had to rest up after taking me shopping all the places.. Bugis village, Chinatown, the IT mall, Little India, several shopping centres..

DOWNS:

Feli's mum got sick when I came back from Malaysia, and I did not get to talk to her very much. I also felt really sorry for her, and there was nothing that I could do, or nothing that I knew of that I could do to make her feel better. Feli sais that she felt bad because she did not get to take me out to dinner. I don't really think that she should feel bad when it is something that is completely uncontrollable. Thank goodness that she is all fine again now.

Missing out on seeing a Chinese temple. They are so beautiful, from the pictures that I've seen and I drove past quite a few of them.

Realising just exactly how much money I spent.. *LOL* The good thing was that I had allocated enough funds for it.

The good thing about most of the downs is that I can make up for them next year. :)

that's all I can come up with.

Malaysia

Malaysia was the start of my wild shopping spree, and it was good to catch up with Jo again! I arrived in KL after a day with lot's of melting and freezing.. I arrived in Singapore at abt 6:30 am and was picked up by Feli and her mum. Spent half a day with Feli and then took the bus to Malaysia. Jo lives in one of the suburbs, about 30 minutes from KL, depending on the traffic. Malaysia was a huuuge difference from home. I felt the cultureshock when I arrived there, I'm soo not used to be a minority, but whenever we had lunch or dinner in her town, I was. Strange feeling, but also a good feeling in a way. We spent loads of time eating and shopping, her parents are the sweetest parents on earth, as they took us wherever we wanted to go, basically. We all went to Melaka, which was one of the more touristy cities there. I liked it a lot. We went to the old portugese fort, we went ard town shopping for a while and then Jo's parents took us to a Baba-house. That is a restaurant that cooks food that has it's roots in both Malay and Chinese cooking. It was sooo nice! Best food ever. We went to the night-market where I bought loads of stuff, and returned home late as. :)

Jo took me to Batu Caves, which is one of the Hindu sacret places in M'sia. It was coool. (But not cold at all! We completely melted!!) There was a Huuge gold statue there at the entrance of the cave, and the steps were steep as. About 280 steps, so dixon street times 2. After going into the caves we went ard the stalls, bought bindi and some other stuff. Then we headed to KLCC for some shopping (of course). ^_^ I got to see a lion dance one of the days, which was cool cause I've never seen one before. They were good, and now that I've seen one, I'm supposed to have good luck for the rest of the year. Whee!

I had durian for the first time in my life, and thought it wasn't as bad as the rumours that I've heard. The smell isn't that intense, and it tasted ok. And I didn't feel that my fingers smelled either after I had washed them, but definitely, my breath did smell like durian! hehe. Other than that Jo's parents took us to a wide variety of local restaurants, and I have tried so many things that I really can't remember the name of... food is probably very important to the Malaysian society. :)

3 things that freaked me out:

- Traffic!! I've never experienced it worse. everyone drives like maniacs, and we saw some motorcyclist get squashed between two cars on the motorway, just in front of our eyes when we were trying to get a cab. YIKES. Memorable was also Jo's mum's highspeed carchase after a guy hit her side-mirror on the road to a shop.

-Squat-down-toilets! Ok, really it's silly. It's just that I'm not used to them, have never seen any in my whole life, but they were a fright when I really had to go.

-Spiders! We saw some nastily big ones at the butterfly park. Man...


3 things that I L-O-V-E loved:

-Shopping! Never before have I ever been in such a heaven for shopping. Shoes! My favourite thing to shop were really cheap there, I bought 3 pairs. Shawls. Yum.

-Seeing and interacting with a culture completely different from what I'm used to. Awesome. The many different costumes, the many different kinds of ppl, the strange rules and all that.

-FOOD. All the yummy food that I tried. My gosh.

Malaysia was definitely one of the best holidays I've ever had in my entire life, that inspite of the fact that my stomach was kinda upset some of the time. It didn't hinder me too much though, have seen a lot, and spent heeps too much money. Ah well. It was worth it.

Singapore I'll do tomorrow, I have to do my readings!!

Amsterdam

When I was travelling to Malaysia and Singapore, my airplane was delayed out from Oslo because of snow on the runway, and as a result of that I had to stay a whole day in Amsterdam! At first I felt like it was the end of the world, but after a while I realised that it wasn't all bad. I wanted to stay in Amsterdam for a day on my way back next summer, but the ticket I bought wouldn't allow a stay that exeeded 24 hours. So, having this in mind, I spent the day in Amsterdam, walking around and taking some photos. What really struck me was that it seemed that everything that isn't allowed at home was allowed in Holland. Prostitution, magic mushrooms, cannabis.. even death aid is legal there. I expected the red light district to actually be a district, but it wasn't. everywhere there was red lights and prostitutes posing, which to me was a new and very strange sight. well, at least I got somehting out of my delay. Now I don't have to do the hardcore sightseeing when I return there in December, I can go to the places that I didn't have the time to go to when I was there now. All in all, I liked Amsterdams. The canals were beautiful, so was the architecture. And so many bikes!!!! If u click on the picture u can see them all in more detail.