My grandmother is dying. My mother urged me to call home today, and she sais that my grandmother is sick, and won't make it this time. My grandmother wants to die.

It is breaking my heart that I can't be there to send her off, my insurance company won't cover the cost because she is 79, and they only cover grandparents that are under 75. I'll dump them next year and find someone else I think. Wankers.

I don't expect much from anyone. I know that it's weird to have your friend feel down without being able to do something about it, that's just life guys. Please don't walk on eggshells around me though, I don't wanna feel like a freak, I hate it how people can act like grief is an unnatural thing. Expect me to be a bit unstabile for a couple of days at least...

God reise, Mormor. Hils til Morfar.