Which is worse? not being able to verify, or verifying a negative?
I'm glad that some stories have a happy ending.

I'm starting to worry that my nightly trips to the botanical garden and the waterfront are not too safe ventures.. I'm good at worrying nowadays. I worry about the wellbeing of my friends more and more, even though it is not beneficial in any way. I worry that they might not eat properly, that they're depressed with schoolwork, that they make it safe home from town in the weekend...
I'm worried about my grandmother, whether she will stay alive until I come home, and then if she does get better I am worried about how I can make a difference in her life, improve her quality of life. It's quite a selfish thought to just think that she will be at peace when she goes, something should be done to make her feel at peace before she goes. And I don't know how I can do that from here. I used to be good at writing letters for her and I always remember to send her cards for xmas and stuff, but then it was brought to my attention by my uncle that she never reads them, and she never opens her mail. Since then I kinda gave up, and now it may be too late. Creative thinking - - creative thinking. No use in embracing all this negative energy, I'll let go


I distinctly remember giving this advice to a friend some years ago: The world will take care of itself if only I let it. Why can't I embrace that thought right now? Getting out of town next weekend will be good. I need to wash off all this noise and stuff, will be awesome I think.