Good day

Soundtrack: Kings of Convenience - I'd rather dance with you

After yesterday's sorrows, today proved to be a muuch better day. :) Actually I should have been studying hard out for my exam, but somehow I don't have the proper drive... It'll be fine though. Tomorrow should prove a more effective day (just keep saying that, Tina...)

So instead I spent the evening making Lasagna for my friends! Wuhu! And niice icecream with explicit sex talk afterwards... We know how to party.. lol Oh my god, !xobile

Oh well. better try get some sleep.

P...M...S?

I'm just sad right now.. sooo tired, had a hard night at work. Last night, Manuel decided to have a party, because he finished his last exam. (whee! Good on u manu!) Anyway, I was royally stressed out and kinda ran away from the whole thing... I had a crap as day yesterday. I had to get up at 2 to look at a flat, which prooved to be crap as usual, and because I didn't sleep enough I was too tired to study after I got back and decided to sleep. Woke up at 7pm and didn't get to do any studying again because of the party, on top of that all the ppl were giving me a hard time for working, saying that I was boring and that I should call in sick, and saying that I should give a fuck about this exam.. I am so stressed about this exam! the lecturer has a way of twisting the words in the questions so that I don't really know what it is he is asking for.. it is making me unsure and I cannot bring my dictionary because It doesn't do any good anyway.. So I ran away from the party. the whole day was whasted... Mark has left me in the search for the apartment.. I'm sick of the whole hunt now and will put it on hold till tuesday. I don't have time for this shit! Ahh....

On a brighter note:
I have confidence in this world now. It came to me on the bus. I suppose it was almost like a religious thing... suddenly, watching a traffic light on victoria street, I felt at home again. Not in Wellington(although this does feel like my home right now) but in the world. The world holds my soul at the moment, and I feel confident that anything I need will be given to me at the appropriate time, although I won't necessarily recognise it at once.. Sometime I miss having a religion to cling to, but then I have one of these moments, and it comes to me that I do have a religion. I do have a set of beliefs, I do believe in things that cannot be proved, but still it feels sooo obvious to me. It's good to have a purpose.
No regrets.

10 Things to appreciate on a rainy day

1. I don't have to go out if I don't want to
2. I can sleep till 5 ish
3. Having beers in the morning after a long night of work
4. Two wonderful flatmates
5. Being given the perfect opportunity to stay indoors and STUDY!
6. I will save money because I don't want to go shopping
7. Lots of friends live in the same building
8. If I get bored I can actually tidy my room
9. Croissants and cheese
10. I don't have to work tonite

Flat

I wish I could find a flat soon! I'm getting a bit tired of searching for a flat. I now know how to decifer flat adds:
Magnificent views = on top of a steep hill far away from supermarket
Large windows = Freezing in the winter
Suitable for up to 5 tenants = 3 at most!
Preferred tenants: Young profs = Old geezers with snug jobs
People have this image of what a student is like.. loud, messy, destructive, lazy... I don't really want to lower my standards, just because I'm now a student. I know I'm being demanding, wanting a mint flat without moist damage or shit-coloured walls, but I guess in reality we've got to be quite lucky to find something that will suit everyone. I passed on the one I liked cuz Loic didn't like the rooms. Ok, so one of them didn't have a door.. so what. I saw potential in that flat.. Just keep looking then. I've spent several hours flathunting this week. Maybe 2 hours revising for my exam... It's no good.

Goodbye Lene...

Gosh, what an unproductive day it has been today.. We had Lene's sendoff yesterday... :'( Wasn't feeling that great this morning. It is the official start of the leaving-season... ***SIGH*** She's the first one out, going travelling with her family for some days and then just coming back here for a few hours before leaving, so won't see her again in NZ. I'll miss you, babe. All the good times. Memories.

I miss myself the way I used to be at a certain point in time. At the same time, I do not wish go go backwards.. Strange dilemma. Have been working both Friday and Saturday night, now it's Sunday morning, and I'm chillin' with some beers before heading off to bed soon. Been a quiet night, thank goodness. Today there was a bunch of us who had like an official sendoff dinner for Lene. Damn, I hate these dinners. Novembers suck. This year I'll be saying goodbye to 4 friends: (cronologically) Lene, Peter, Elisabeth and Manuel. I hate saying goodbye to ppl. It's been a year and a half already, and I still miss the first people to leave Welli after getting to know them. All the small memories from when Feli and Regi were here... As I was sitting on the bus yesterday I was thinking about how different places in Welli reminds me of different ppl. I'll list them for you :)

Circa Theatre, Downstage and Bats Theatre: Felicia and Regina
The church on Dixon/Willis: Feli
The church on Church St: Regi
Espressoholic: Jo, Feli, Regi and Kuni
The Malthouse: Kunihiro!
Lambton Quay, outside Supré: Go
My room on 3rd floor in Vic house: Trong. (I miss u as a neighbour, Trong!)
The bench outside Pipitea/Havana: Anette
The Norwegian Consulate: Lene
The water purifier in Vic House/every shoe shop: Joanne
Strawberry fair: My girls ;)
Civic Square: Geeta
Shitty Okey's/the couch: Manuel
The bench on Manners and Willis/Lyall Bay parade: Peter
The bench in the Botanical garden: Elisabeth
Michael Fowler Centre: Travis
Te Aro: Tarz

There's more but I should go to bed.
Mmmm, memories. I carry you all in my heart.

2000 words in 12 hours.... a bit drained and terrified that this is a shit essay... Exam tomorrow! Whoa.. wish me luck... Tuesday! Can't wait for tuesday... maybe finally some shopping??

Wide awake

It's 8:15 am now, and unfortunately I'm wide awake. I have to sleep soon! I've slept about 4 hours the last two days... It's quite worrying. Work last night was quite interesting.. I had to kick someone out, and there was HEAPS of work to be done.. I don't really think about it, but I basically go for 8 hours doing physical labour.. Which to me is quite all right. Think about all the ppl all over the world who do physical labour, and if they're lucky they get paid $1 a day.. I'm working with a Somalian guy called Dayib. I really like him, he is nice to talk to, and he tells me about stuff that I'm curious about. He came here from Somalia about 2 years ago, and I'm learning lots of stuff about Somalia, about how he views his religion (it is Ramadan now), just things that you wonder about but don't talk about. He is a very strict Muslim, which to me is a bit frightening, but it is also really interesting to learn what it's all about, and he doesn't seem to hate people that are of different religions (not that I think that Muslims do, it's just an observation). I'd like to go to Africa sometime. It's nice to meet new people.

I'm sooo busy right now, so I'm sorry to all of yous who are trying to get me on MSN, trying to arrange lunch, trying to talk to me and stuff. I've got a test today, a huge test tomorrow, one essay due by Friday, another essay due on Monday and an exam on Monday. It's a lot... Come Tuesday morning after work, I'm finally going to be able to relax again. Gotta go and try to sleep now. Hopefully I can.

Drowning in assignments

Soundtrac: Technohead - hippie

Today I spent the day in Petone, doing field research for my hostel-assignment. Damn, that place felt lonely.... longing for something that it didn't have. I just wanted to go home after 2 hours.


: the view from... close to the place where I'm building it. This is Petone. The city centre, anyway.




It was a gorgeous day, however, and I actually found a suitable spot to plot my environmentally sustainable hostel. Whay!


This is a sad promenade... it's almost as thought the town has lost something that it once had, and is longing for it.


So, after wandering around for a total of 4 hours, I feel like I know what I need to know about the place. I don't know why ppl would want to come here though, even though there is an absolutely awesome hostel, the town hasn't got much to offer. Strange choice by the lecturer...





I want to go back over there!
Welli, my babe, I'll never leave you for Petone.

Quiz-night

Guess who won the international student's quiznight? that's right! I, Elisabeth, Manuel, Christiaan and Loic .Haha, it was good fun. We had an awesome team name: the Hoff. In the end we came in 8 points ahead of the second team (and yes, there were more than 2 teams..) Manuel even won us two mugs of free grog, and Eli almost won us two more. :) After that we went home and I baked too many buns... We still have some, they're not doing too ok. :D

Good news!

Soundtrack: Snap - The Power

I've got a job! I'm now working two nights a week at the YHA in Wellington, as night manager. It's not at luxurious as it sounds though.. most of the workload is doing the laundry, and then on top of that I'm responsible for about 300 sleeping ppl, secruity checks every now and then, late comers and check-outs in the morning. I think that two nights a week is quite appropriate, possibly I'd go mad if I had to do more laundry than that. On the good side, I get to walk ard with a walkie talkie and feel veery important (snort). ^_^ Oh well, we'll see. Maybe I'll try to get another job on top of that, preferably during daytime. But hey, I'm saved! No more saving (although I really should be concerned about my spending anyway.. heh).

bored

Yesterday we had dinner with all the Stafford-people. 'Twas nice to just sit and talk shit for hours while waiting for food.. We were supposed to meet up with Loic and some ppl, but since it took 3 hours for the food to be served we didn't make it. Oh well, it's not the last chance. Tuesday is the international quiz night again! the goal is to do better than last time!
It's been a while since I was this bored... It's Saturday and since I'm sick I decided to stay home. So, I thought it would be a good idea to call up some friends at home maybe, but guess what. No one in Norway is at home today. Not even mum!

I surreder. I'm gonna read the last chapter of marketing that I wanted to read in bed before falling asleep.

a HUGE pep talk to myself (and to you guys as well)

Make promises to yourself that you can keep, and keep them. Be true to yourself. Start where you actually are today, and take it one step of the time. Don't make plans that are unachievable. don't pursue visions and ideas that will in the end lead to unhappiness. Work hard to reach goals that you perceive as important for your development. Cry whenever you feel the need to, there is no point in holding back. Don't be afraid to show your friends that you care for them and love them. Don't think that love is something that is reserved for everyone else but you. Let go of your fears that are keeing you back. Live in the moment, look to the future, remember the past. Don't compromise your own needs to accommodate the needs you believe that other people have. Don't rely on other people for your happiness. Believe in karma, live by the golden rule. Good things will end, but good things will come. Don't keep yourself down. Everyone chooses their path in life, don't depend on someone else to find your path. But don't be afraid of walking where other people have walked before, if you're going the right way, any path is the right one. Live where happiness lives. Treasure small moments, but don't get caught up in them. Laugh when you say hello, cry when you say goodbye. Follow your instincts. What you need will be given to you when you need it. Trust life.

Travel itinerary time

I finally got round to ordering my trip next year, and already stuff was almost booked out... thank goodness that I had the sense to do it now and not wait. So, not confirmed yet, but I'll probably be going to Germany for a week to see Manuel's place n surroundings before heading for Singapore to see my friends(!) and then onwards to Melbourne and then back to good ol' Welli. It's a familiar route, but I really don't mind seeing Melbourne again, I'm thinking of doing the last year of my studies there even. Ugh, so much planning!!!

Other than that: It's SPRING!!!

Late Happy B-day, Feli!

As usual I'm a bit late, and you'll have to wait for the stuff to reach you.. have faith! Have patience! I did not forget!

I hope you are having an awesome time in Korea, dear! :) Can't believe how fast time has flied since we were all happily living together in Vic house..

Big Birthdayhug from Tina.

Cape Palliser

Soundtrack: Red Hot Chili Peppers - ...

I have news: I am NOT going out at all this weekend. Quite frankly, I'm too tired today, have had a long and eventful day. We (Me, Manuel, Peter and Lene) went for a daytrip to Cape Palliser, and had a joyous picnic among the seals. It was totally awesome, and once again I've managed to get a sunburn.. whay! This summer could prove to be quite a challenge for me I think..
Have to sleep now... sooooo tired. Couldn't sleep last night; heat, nightmares, strong winds, high heartrate... weird combination. Hopefully tonight I'll fall asleep witout complications. And tomorrow: More national parks! workworkwork! last day of the "holiday!"

Felicia!

I DID collect stamps! And glittered images, and notebooks, and stickers of various kinds, and napkins, and phonecards, and little stuffed animals that can clip onto stuff, and paperclips and hats and keychains (!), and Marbles!! yeah, and ponies, and ROCKS (I still do, actually lol), and those cards that you get when you graduate at home (russekort), and the kinder-surprise toys, and pencils/pens, newspaperclippings of my fav band, pins, postcards and letters from my 1000 penfriends haha... and magazines.. and I'm sure that I'm forgetting already lots of things that I tried to collect but never worked out. That's insane... my whole childhood I've been collecting useless stuff. No wonder my mum is begging me to throw away stuff every time I'm home.
It is actually quite nice to look back at my childhood and realise that I've been confused the whole time, it's not new at all!

Which is worse? not being able to verify, or verifying a negative?
I'm glad that some stories have a happy ending.

I'm starting to worry that my nightly trips to the botanical garden and the waterfront are not too safe ventures.. I'm good at worrying nowadays. I worry about the wellbeing of my friends more and more, even though it is not beneficial in any way. I worry that they might not eat properly, that they're depressed with schoolwork, that they make it safe home from town in the weekend...
I'm worried about my grandmother, whether she will stay alive until I come home, and then if she does get better I am worried about how I can make a difference in her life, improve her quality of life. It's quite a selfish thought to just think that she will be at peace when she goes, something should be done to make her feel at peace before she goes. And I don't know how I can do that from here. I used to be good at writing letters for her and I always remember to send her cards for xmas and stuff, but then it was brought to my attention by my uncle that she never reads them, and she never opens her mail. Since then I kinda gave up, and now it may be too late. Creative thinking - - creative thinking. No use in embracing all this negative energy, I'll let go


I distinctly remember giving this advice to a friend some years ago: The world will take care of itself if only I let it. Why can't I embrace that thought right now? Getting out of town next weekend will be good. I need to wash off all this noise and stuff, will be awesome I think.

boing whee

Soundtrack: Prodigy - out of space

uh oh... it seems I've lost my landline. I guess I do need some time away from the city... Today it seems that my brain is separate from my body, at least they cannot co-operate for long stretches of time. Strange... usually this happens when I want to get away from something or a situation.. Yeah, I think I do. I'm not comfortable in my head at all today, there's too much BS going on and I don't have too much control, which is probably why I just wish I was somewhere or someone else. I should run away from home :) Too bad I'm not dressed well enough to do that.

Dinnerparty and picnic.

Soundtrack: Yo Yo Ma: Bach - 6 suites for unac. Cello

Funny how so much of and average person's social-life relies on food..

Monday we had a huge dinnerparty here, something that was just going to be the three of us flatties plus three more ppl turned into twelve people during the course of the evening... And still we would have had food enough for at least five more people. Talk about overdoing it. It was nice though, getting a bunch of current and old flatties over.


Then on Wednesday I had my first picnic this year (weird eh.. considering we're eager picnicers) with Peter at Lyall Bay. He is a nice guy, reminds me a lot of René for some reason, so naturally I adore him. :) It was nice to sit at the beach, listening to the waves and talking about all kinds of stuff. The consequence: I've got a sunburn! It's not even spring yet! Something tells me that my SPF 130 will come in handy this summer.. ahem.
Today I've actually done some work. I know, it's pretty unbelievable, but I've been industrious and have been able to start my first assignment and am well on the way. Yay! Can't wait for Mozart on Saturday!

what really matters in life

I learned an important life lesson today:
Never try to swallow your spit before the drink when you already have started the process of drinking.... Just do it all in once.
What happens is:
You confuse the two processes because they feel like two separate processes, when in fact they are two consecutive parts of the same process. The result: Wrong pipe. This can be very embarassing when carried out in a computer lab full of people who are there DURING THE HOLIDAY writing away at essays when they could have been at home in bed sleeping. Not to mention the fact that you have to go all the way to the toilet to get paper to wipe all the energy drink off the computerscreen...


My grandmother is on the mend again.. which feels a bit confusing as I've already invested quite some time in feeling down and being unfocused on my work. I still don't know how things are though, whether she is really on the mend or just hanging in there. Time will show now I guess.

...

I just wanna whine and whine, but who cares.. probably no one even reads this shit. Seems like everything I touch turns to gold these days, and all the while I'm just thinking what's the point of it all? Everything comes to an end. I'm tired. I sleep so much these days, and still all I feel like doing is sleep some more. I want to socialise, but can't think of what to say. I'm starting to hate people who say "Hey how are you" but actually don't want to know. And I hate myself for feeling down when all I really want to do is to be happy and do silly things like I usually do... I'm sure my friends find me super boring like this, heaven knows I find myself boring. Just as I found my groove again life happens.


I'll get through.
I'm gonna climb that tree in the garden some day soon. Maybe spring is not so far away, then the roses will start to bloom.

My grandmother is dying. My mother urged me to call home today, and she sais that my grandmother is sick, and won't make it this time. My grandmother wants to die.

It is breaking my heart that I can't be there to send her off, my insurance company won't cover the cost because she is 79, and they only cover grandparents that are under 75. I'll dump them next year and find someone else I think. Wankers.

I don't expect much from anyone. I know that it's weird to have your friend feel down without being able to do something about it, that's just life guys. Please don't walk on eggshells around me though, I don't wanna feel like a freak, I hate it how people can act like grief is an unnatural thing. Expect me to be a bit unstabile for a couple of days at least...

God reise, Mormor. Hils til Morfar.

I found it again

sometimes it feels as though I'm losig myself, but the storm is now oficially over! My calm is back. No more uncertainty, no more homesickness, no more sleepless nights. YES!I'm back in the game.

Drunk Happy Tina is at large again!

u guys would not believe this... or maybe you would. I decided that it was time to go, bcause I'm kinda loosing mysekf here, And Kristian insists on bringing me home! It is very nice of him, I think at home noone would careif a girl decided to go home alone. He walked me all the way hoe, like, 2 km(!) from shitty okei's to staffor, which was lucky or I would end up doing something that I really wasn't up for at all, I am sure. funny,.. I could get used to the courtesy of the foreigners, I quite like it, iin fact.
Had a good day, had Icecream wiht Anette, and then a reallu weird start of teh night, was going to go to Tarz' place but just couldn't find my way!! It was far off, I suppose it would have been better to start thgerem rather than to try and find it after drikign... I must say, this catholic church nxt to stafford, it si ringin the bell evry hour, and I'm beginning to like it. I know now when It's fullhoiw, because the bell is ringing. :)
Es friert mich.. Jtzt geh ich ins Btt.

natta. Gla i dåke alle. Klem Tina

Soundtrack: Imogen Heap - Hide and seek

What is it about some people that makes them want to create an environment of uncertainty and disharmony? I am always trying to understand the motivation behind people's actions, but sometimes I am at loss.. I had an incident yesterday that felt really degrading. I didn't even know until I woke up this morning that I cared... but sometimes things happen that I don't understand and that I can't find any logic in, no matter how hard I try. Usually I am reasonably able to put myself into other's situation...

Overslept this morning, BUT, I didn't do it on purpose! First time this year. Goodness gracious me, what have I become..
Drifing back and forth these days in all things, such as my perspective on the world and myself, the aftereffect of lots of mixed up feelings about all sorts of stuff and persons, I'm a thoroughly confused girl this weekend I think. Desto more exciting. Come 5pm tomorrow I'll not only be confused, but also bruised al over if all goes according to plan. Nothing like shooting the crap outta your friends and some random people to keep sane from time to time. (Paintball). Going to my friend Tarz' party tomorrow I think, kinda feel like catching up with that lot.

I will go photoshooting on Saturday! The weather WILL BE NICE! My poor neglected camera is screaming for attention..

gurker och fogelbaisa!

I am sure now that I'm fire. Earth stabilises me, air gives me power and water calms me down. Really.. I was feeling all wired up yesterday, and went down to the waterfront to calm down (as usual... some ppl must think that I live down there). There I had this epiphany.

Just finished my essay 2 minutes ago... still feel sick after the weekend... now have to hurry down, hand it in, hurry back home and write my german assignment.. *sigh*
Being lazy is sometimes a real curse.

ET sais: "oouch"
I totally agree.

Another day... and another one tomorrow.. and so on

Soundtrack: The Doors - Yes, the river knows

I'm all alone, but I'm not lonely, because I'm in quite good company. I realise that my life is lived through music... for example: Today i woke up to the dance-beats of Alice Deejay- Better off alone. I Walked to school listening to Air - How does it make you feel. I Walked into town listening to Røyksopp, and got partially stood up by my friend Peter (although not really) listening to Sigur Ros. Went shopping with Jo thinking about Jazzanova's mix of Fat Freddy's "Flashback". I was drinking with Geeta listening to the new Black Seeds album, and have been studying with the Doors. Now Jim is getting older, and his voice more rusty, and I'm getting slowly more tired after this weird day.

I am still painfully homesick, my heart is bleeding for some strange reason, I don't have that much waiting for me at home but obviously a part of me still belongs there. Isn't it funny how we all move in cycles all the time? We're kinda predictable.. We're sad, then we get happy again, and then back down.. and up.. I'm homesick now and so on but I know that I'll be back to happy go lucky come the end of the week or maybe next week. Why does this knowledge not allow me to skip to the happy go lucky part?? Urettferdig. I don't feel lonely... In a way I'm just missing a small piece and have to find it again. I should go down to the water... that usually helps.
I know some of the things that I miss: I miss seeing spiders in the basement, and saving them from the wrath of my mother and stepfather who would kill them without a second though... I miss being able to see Deneb at the night sky, using the arrow in big dog to find it.. I miss some of my favourite trees, the hill, some things that never change and make me sure of the certainty of life... My parents... the moonlight (This city is too bright, it doesn't go proper dark in the night)... Rain and wind, when the weather is absolutely dreadful but I know that I'll be warm inside the house... The midnight sun in the summer and the northern light in the winter... blablaBLA. Listen to me going on and on. I miss the grey book!

Cravings..

It is incredible how much sweets a woman can eat at certain points of the month! Just today I've gobbeled my way through some bee balls, a small package of m&ms, a milo bar, l&p (about half a litre), almost a whole package of pods and quite a few starburst fruit burst caramels.... I now feel quite sick. I think I have managed to calm down the beast inside that keeps screaming for more sweets, and finally can rest a bit. Trying to write my essay, and I'm slowly making some progress... I even get writer's block writing this entry right now, sure sign to get back to work!

Birthdayparties galore

Soundtrack: The black seeds - cool me down


So many birthdays have been celebrated the last few weeks... Jono.. Renaye, and this weekend we celebrated Manuel's birthday. I baked my very first cake here in New Zealand, felt good to finally do some baking! Ophelia did an outstanding job, I think we're getting to know each other now and cooperate better. It was an absolutely fantastic evening, with everyone in a good mood, having a great time. We first had a kinda big party in our flat, before we went pub/clubhopping. Nice. I bought the new Black Seeds album yesterday, when we went to the warehouse to get some equipment for baking. It's nice. :) next weekend I'm looking forward to some R&R when some ppl go for skiing. That'll be good, the plan is to finalise (or as good as) my assignment on impacts of tourism on the environment in Milford sound. Sounds nice, eh? I like the new tourism courses, they are challenging and I feel that everything is useful knowledge. Not just blablabla, like some courses are.

The wind has been really strong today, the whole house is shaking. Today I haven't even been out of the house.. We had some nice Mascarpone thingy, a desert made by our fabulous new flatmate! We've watched fight club, all huddled together in front of the comp. Just like old times, but with new ppl. Times change.

Fun link of the day: Peter Crouch in action

Sunshine - At Home.

soundtrack: basshunter - boten anna

What is it about summer and warm weather that makes all Norwegians celebrate shit music? Every single summer there are some hits at home that would NEVER make it if the weather was crap and ppl had time to actually listen to the songs, like the basshunter song "boten anna". It sucks. And it is kinda provoking that such crap should generate money for the creator. Argh.

I am sucked into a vacuum, I'm tired every day and don't have much energy. I need some rest for my soul... or something.. I dunno.

What a weekend!

Friday night was totally awesome, we went to a birthdayparty on the tenth floor, and then went partying. On saturday we started partying early again, as we were going to the ALL BLACKS GAME!
It is acutally not so hard to get excited about the all blacks, and I must say that going to the game was the absolute highlight of my weekend. Going out afterwards was soo tiring... SOOO many people in town! So stuffed, so... tiring. But the game was awesome. I thought we had bad seats, but actually they were quite nice. We were behind the goalpost with excellent view of the big screen, so we caught most of the action. YEE!

Procrastination...

I'm back to my familiar pattern of procrastination... I realise that the word procrastination is so long just because then it takes longer to write it, and that helps the actual cause, muahhah. Uploading pictures to my photoblog... commenting on other ppl's pictures... worrying about talking too much in tutorials.. gazing out the window at the harbour... searching on TradeMe... Yep. I'm back.

*Grunt*

Drunk Ha tina: ppymuahh hAhh hahh haaa..
Why is it that y can get along with someone soo much better when hy r not living together anymore??? I dunno.. I had a good night, which usually means: I drink, I dance a lot and at the end I get my kebab at cuba kebab, all good (all though they gave me carrot instead of onion today, randomm). Good luck bar is cool. I like it. I met sooo many ppl going home today, and then in the end it was onlly 2 ppl?? maybe it was the big kumara, we passed it on the wahy.. lost some ppl there I think.
Jonno's b-day today, great cake! yum!













Wo ist Peter? We tried to find him but nooo. I found Frank though. :) Tired..
Gonna sleep now.

LOOOVE

stuff

I'm confused. I just wanna drown myself in schoolwork, and not have to think about my life. There's been another shift in the world, a new trimester, a new war in Israel, new people coming into stafford house and old people have left. New lecturers, new assignments, new feelings and old feelings, all mixed together in a huge bowl that just makes the outcome of the dough hard to predict.
Maybe weekend drinking has lost it's charm to me? I wasn't enjoying myself that much yesterday, apart from the fact that I met Peter for the first time in almost two months. It made the whole night out seem worthwhile. I was feeling sick, and in a sence nobody gives a shit. If you are the person bringing others down, everyone just wants to get rid of you as soon as possible. I have seen this happen before with others, so I just took off before anyone had a chance to be brought down by the fact that I wasn't feeling good. I'm not used to all this selfishness... I feel myself slipping, that I'm developing into a new person, and I'm not sure that it's the person that I would like to become, and I'm afraid that it is not possible to change the current and float the right way. I'm going to have to try, that's for sure. But right now, drowning in schoolwork seems juuust fine to me, not having to deal with all these decisions, not having to work hard to maintain my moral, my essence.

Soundtrack: Nina Simone - Night song

Yesterday was a veery cultural day for me.. I went to two exhibitions and one concert! The day started at about noon, when I met Trav to go get tickets for the symphony orchestra. After that we decided to go see the Constable exhibition at Te Papa, a british landscape painter. After that I was on my way to the family store to look for some bedside drawers, when Manuel texted me and asked whether I wanted to go to a photo exhibition at the Wellington city and sea museum. So I thought, hey why not, I'm on a roll here. On my way there I bumped into HGL on the waterfront. Still hot.. *sigh* Gonna be a good trimester ^_^. My last cultural thing was the symphony orchestra, which was absolutely GREAT. They played music by Schnittke (some contemporary composer I have no knowledge of), Beethoven (Piano concerto no 3, beautiful) and finished with Shostakovich (which was powerful as hell, I was completely blown away!). While I was sitting there being entertained by New Zealand's finest, All Blacks kicked Wallabies' asses!

After all this culture, I met up with Annika, and went partying! Yeah! After my bad night on Friday, it was good to have a "normal experience" again. Everything is restored to normal. We got in about 4, and Olivier and Manu made food. How awesome is that! I didn't have to do anything at all!

NOW, I have to get into study mode, as Trimester 2 starts in 14 hours! I passed all my courses, AND managed to keep the dreaded first C away. Pretty happy about that. My first A+ is secured, danke schön. My hair is bright red again. Well.. I think that's enough information for now.

sunshine, blue sky and grey harbour? have to check it out...

Went out partying yesterday, such a random thing. Renaye called asking for Manuel, and before I knew it, I could hear myself say: wanna come down? Weird... I don't know her well at all, but I guess it was just meant to be that way yesterday. I miss girls.. Joanne has been gone since TUESDAY, I haven't even seen her since Manuel came home. He insists that she don't like him. And so, just to get some girly company, I invited Renaye and her bottle of wine to come visit. We decided to go out, since it was girl's night at Blend. It was wicked fun, apart from a few things: Renaye called her bf, she was drunk and he was not, they ended up havin another argument (oouch..), Ronny was hitting on Philipp's gf even though we established that she is a full blown bitch... they should be perfect for each others then (OOUCH...) (I am soo mean..), apart from that everything was great. :) I have decided not to ever drink cheap champagne again, though.

Living with Manu is Awesome though! Today he made breakfast! Just like that! I couldn't believe it...

I had my first tattoo removal session yesterday. It hurt. N i feel like I'm betraying my cute little basilisk... *sigh* I guess that time of my life should be coming to an end.

Dad's home again

Dad went home last Sunday, and now I'm bored as. We managed to do alot before he went though, but didn't get to see the south island. Next time. :) This time I got to do some of the things that I wanted to last time I went north: We went to Taupo, where we went on the Jetboat at Huka falls (awesome), we went sailing on Lake Taupo, we went to Waitomo Caves to see the glow worms and the stalagmites n stalactites, we went to Rotorua and didn't do a thing there *lol*. YHA rotorua is bad.

Got to see a lot of Wellington as well, we spent quite a few days here, I was sick the first couple of days so we didn't do a lot then. I've had an awesome time, it was so cool to show my dad around, now he knows what I'm talking about when I'm speaking of stuff ard here. :)

goin' travellin'

My dad arrived at 20th of June, and I've been doing my best to take him around Wellington, although I've been sick as and the weather has been pretty bad. It's been ok today though, but I'm really sick... trying to be brave, and not to be too much of a drag. Tomorrow we're going travelling north to Taupo, Rotorua and Waitomo. It'll be great! hopefully I'll be a bit better in the days to come, and hopefully the weather will clear up a bit as well. we were going to go to Kapiti Island today, but the weather wouldn't allow it, and I was sick, so we're going to rebook it for another day. It should be a cool trip as well, if we can pull it off before my dad leaves.
Please, let me get well before long!
So far we've been all around Welli, up to uni and all round town. It feels a bit crazy to have my dad here, like another world meeting my world... It's pretty cool though. Now he can see all the things that I've been talking about. :)

Moving date: 3rd of July!

This is a picture from the party on Saturday, one of them that is. Saturday was wiiicked, we started off at 7pm with a bunch of tequila shots, and kept on prepartying through the all blacks game. We won! Anyway, after that, at about 11pm, George took us all to a house party. Which was wild... we stayed there for a while, and then ended up somewhere else. Good luck? yea, goodluck bar. nice. I stole my first ever beerglass here in Wellington, which was an event.. heh.

Last night we went out to send off Jason, he is leaving to go back to USA soon. I don't know him that well, but we have had some good times. :) I am still completely blown by the fact that he proposed to his girl.. He got her up on stage, played "Little wing", and then he got down on his knee and asked for her hand... what a cutie pie.

hrrm

I seldom edit what I write when i'm drunk, but last night, I think drunk happy Tina had a small visit from drunk mean Tina, and what would to me read: "I hate you", would to others read: Ai heeeit jo... As in Jo, which would be bad. I do not hate Jo, I am just going nuts over my flatmate as usual. My other flatmate, that is. here's the rest of the post, intact, untouched, as it was at 2pm this morning.

It is sunday, I'm all dressed up, I look fabulous, I am drunk again, and I am freee from exams and I have just attended the last gig of Jason. And what do you know, he proposed to his GF tonite!!! on stage!! It was soooo romantic... *SIGH*

Cuba Kebab! Why are you closed!!!? wgat am I gonna eat now!? Ronnny ate the rest of the noodles, I heeeeeeeit hiimm!!!! stuppid mæn! fan heller, kann ikkje venta te eg e kvitt han, jævla parasitt! han ete meg ut av huse! eg kan ikkje bejynna å sei k0r masse han irritere meg!! AAAAARGH! EGO EGO EGO!!!!

It was a good nite. i hope I get some pictures from Renaye.

I love you all. all of you, who are reading this! I love you. I am onsly writing this becayse I am drunk, but it is true, you are my friends and I love you, I could not live without you. *BIG HUG* from tina.

Respect to Ghana

I am done with my exaaaams!!!
And on Tuesday my dad comes to visit me!!!
So much to plan, so much to do, so little time, so much fun!
Had a good time yesterday, watching rugby and partying like hell. It was good as, after all this time, I really needed to let my hair down and have some fun. Good ol' fun! Now it's time to start organising, getting ready to move out, that is, maybe clean my room? After all, my dad is coming so it should look nice. Even though I know he doesn't care about mess. So, I have booked the places for Kapiti island, I have booked an appointment to have an assessment for how much it would be to get my tattoo removed (yeowtsch), and the next step is to book time for dinner at Hede's for me, Jo and Manuel. Our date, the three amigos, the three musketeers.. (a lot of good things come in threes!). I want our flat! but I guess we won't get it before the last week of June, or first week in July. Ah well, MY DAD IS COMING TO VISIT!!!!

Oh, and R-E-S-P-E-C-T to Ghana! I lost $80 on you guys, but it has taught me an important lesson: NEVER underestimate the opposing team. I wish them good luck in the WC. (Oh, sidenote: I may have lost $80, but Pun, Trong's flatmate, he lost $1000. *edited: a couple of hundred* That has to hurt.)

days go by

I've been shot down, my daydreaming doesn't make sence to me anymore. I have to find a new set.. Thank goodness that HGL will be back in my life before long. HGL! Brace yourself my dear friends, once again he shall be in my thoughts, and probably on my blog-pages.
I'm feeling bad cause I haven't been to the gym for ages, and I feel all fat and ugly. Of course that is the normal, but not gymming does not make matters any better. I have to get back in the game.. This job and the flu has kept me from my beloved gym-room. I've been ignoring calls from my job both today and yesterday, my conscience is horrible because of it, so probably I'm working tomorrow *grumble* Would much rather like to stay in and study, but alas! I have to be a good girl and go to work, since they are being slow in finding someone else.

The HANDBAG

Soundtrack: Bodyrockers - I like the way you move

Okay, this deserves an entry.
It's been a while since the Hurricanes vs Crusaders final, but something happened on the following morning that has gone down in history here in New Zealand. Tana Umaga and Chris Masoe from the Hurricanes were out at a pub, and apparently Masoe got annoyed at this guy and hit him. So, in comes Tana, heroicly, beating Masoe around the head with a woman's HANDBAG, to try and calm Masoe down. The result: Masoe started crying, and they were both kicked out of the pub. (for more detailed description of the incident, click HERE.)

Well, this was random enough in itself. However, the story does not end there. The woman's phone was broken, and Umaga replaced it. So, the co workers of the woman persuaded her to sell the handbag and the broken phone on TradeMe. She sold it for $22.750!!! The auction had over a million page views, and over 3000 unanswered questions, HAHA. The story has been all over the news for the last few weeks. There has been no official statement from Umaga.

My my my. These rugby guys of ours. I am glad that the All Blacks' season is back, this year I'm catching one of their games when they come to play in Wellington, All Blacks vs Springbooks. Wuhu!

Ok, let's just get this tag out of the way!

I got tagged by Feli. So, here it goes!

Instructions: Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions before you write, and tag 5 people to do the survey.

1. Joanne
2. Trong
3. Ronny
4. Manuel
5. Peter
6. Kristof
7. Gøril
8. Vanessa
9. Renée
10. Odny
11. Wenche
12. Felicia
13. Regina
14. Joe
15. Anette
16. Diego
17. Geeta
18. Katherine
19. Patrick
20. Chandra

Questions:

1. How did you meet #14?
He was mine and Joanne's random flatmate this trimester, who sadly moved out very quickly cause he got a job as an RA. Nice and random dude.

2. What would you do if you had never met #1?
I'd be flatting with someone completely different, and I would only have guy friends! whaah!

3. What would you do if #20 and #9 dated?
What would I do?? I dunno... tell Renée's boyfriend!

4. Would #6 and #17 make a good couple?
Ooh... I have NO idea. Could try? Hehe

5. Describe #3.
EEeeeeeeeh... not much to say, so won't say much. That simple.

6. Do you think #8 is attractive?
Haha, yea, she's pretty nice. ;) She's taken though!

7. Tell me something about #7.
She's a little fire-cat, I met her at my folk high school. She's fun, kinda crazy danger chic, but I like her a lot. Currently she is studying to be a journalist, or something of that kind.

8.Do you know anything about #12's family?
Heeps. ^^ She lives now with her mum, dad and a younger sister, I met them all when I went to visit her in Singapore earlier this year. Her dad scares little kids when the mums are not watching! I was hoping for some "live action" when I was living with them, but he behaved quite normally. hmpf. I guess you could say that Kwee is a part of her family as well.

9. What is #8's favourite?
Animals!! of all kinds! Furry and nice little friends. :)

10.What would you do if #11 confesses that he/she likes you?
I would be a little confused I think. She's quite fond of men.

11. What language does #15 speak?
She speaks Norwegian and English, as far as I know. I don't know whether she can speak any other languages.

12. Who is #9 going out with?
Happily living with her boyfriend for years, Christian.

13. How old is #16 now?
I think he is 30 or 31... not too sure. That is his physical age.

14. When was the last time u talked to #13?
Ages ago!! How is Europe?!

15. Who's #2's favourite singer?
UUuuh, some boyband front figure I imagine?? hehehe

16. Would you date #4?
HAHAHA. Before I got to know him I would have! Nooo, I'm just kidding. He is really nice, I probably would not date him though. He is like my brother, it would be too weird.

17. Would you date #7?
I'm more into guys... anyway, she's taken.

18. Is #15 single?
As far as I know.

19. What's #10's last name?
Askeland! How are you Odny? haven't heard from you for a long time now!

20. Would you ever consider being in a relationship with #19?
Hard to say yes... but hard to say a definite no too. He is a really nice guy, a bit shy for my part though.

21. What schools did #3 go to?
I don't know much about him.. he's at Vic uni now though.

22. Where does #6 live?
He lives with my course coordinator in Wadestown!! Normally he lives somewhere in Germany I think..

23. What's your favourite thing about #5?
He is really nice, on the surface he seems like this really dodgy guy, but he has got layers. And he is amazing at getting beer.

24. What do you think of #13?
A little cutie, a tortured soul sometimes.. I hope she is enjoying her time in Europe now, and will be able to relax more upon her return that what she did before she left.... she has got an amazing capacity to stress. It's a gift. She is selfless, her heart is true, and she will always be a beacon of light to her friends.

25. What do #4 and #19 have in common?
They like movies, they both live in stafford... they are both foriegners and they both like beer.

26. What special qualities does #17 hold in your life?
She is a good friend, and always has something nice and encouraging to say no matter what's up. She is incredibly optimistic, which smudges off on other ppl. Which is nice. :)

My gosh that took long!!

Now, the day is mine!
I tag Regina, Renée, Geeta, Gøril (make use of your space!) and Wenche!

Meditative tapes

Soundtrack: Thomas Dybdahl - make a mess of yourself

My friend Diego gave me these soundfiles to help me sleep and to help me concentrate on my studies. Apparently they are sounds that activate your brain in different ways... I've allways been a bit sceptical to tapes that are supposed to enhance this and that, and hypnotice you into sleep and all kinds of crap. However, I am going to try it tomorrow to get through a chapter that is hard and boring. And tonite, I'm gonna try the sound-sleep one. Hopefully, they can do no harm. So, Jo: If I am being unusually odd the next couple of days, call a therapist or something. Hopefully I won't be brainwashed into joining an UFO sect or something....

weekend

Soundtrack: Gurtz - Caviar

I guess this has been an eventful weekend. When broke one's expectations go drastically down, and therefore everything is appreciated a lot more. I did a psychology experiment on Thursday, which gave me two free movie tickets! wuhu! So on Friday we went to see X-men 3. I thought it was pretty all right, it was good fun. Not too much of a story line, but who cares. :) Effects were great. Then on Saturday, Travis was kind enough to lend me money to go to the LOTR exhibition in Te Papa. Yay!! It was pretty awesome, I must admit that I could have spent a lot more time gawking at the drawings and stuff, but since I'm also bringing my dad there, I will do that next time. ^^ I loved all the costumes! Sooo pretty lah... Thanx Trav! Must see the movies again soon. :) Holidays! When my exams finish, I will do that.
On Wednesday (just the day after tomorrow), my paycheck will arrive. No more money worries! ahh.. thank goodness for that. I have to get better at saving money in the first half of the year... this thing happened last year as well. Not good.

cut, burned and bruised

dishwashing

I've been working for 8 hours today. And we didn't have that many customers. tomorrow will be hell, there are over twice as many customers... *SIGH* As grateful as I am for the opportunity to make some cash, I don't think I will want the ongoing position. Mopping with a mop that was introduced in the 60's is killing my back. The growing piles of dishes are bringing me down. Yes... I think I can't go on with this job. I just hope my first paycheck will come quickly.

Better get some rest so I can do some last minute mugging up for my exam tomorrow.

hurricanes lost...

As it was so eloquently put in Wallace and Gromit: the bounce is gone from my bungey. The hurricanes lost yesterday. It was very foggy, and not so good to see what was going on on the field, but they lost none the less. We were watching it at the loaded hog, with some ppl, quite a nice little bunch of staffordians and some Germans on the side, hehe. After the game Trong got us some beer because he had put money on the Crusaders to win by 1-7 points.

I've been daydreaming almost the whole day. Tucked safely inside my own little world where everything that I want is within reach.. It's comfortable, but a bit unnerving as well, as I have an exam on Tuesday. Right now I'm downloading heeps of german music, my tactic is to listen to stuff with german texts tomorrow.

The Dishwasher

I woke up. I went to school. I went to student job search. I applied for a job. I got the job. I worked from 7 till 10pm and I will work four days next week! YEE!!! Job!! Money!! No more despair, I can pay my bill and everything, I don't have to fret about my money! Ahh.... Such a relief. I am the new kitchenhand at portland hotel thorndon. It's not a lucrative job, but at least it brings home some cash. I'm quite high today.

Apart from that, I'm hooked on pride and prejudice... I've been watching it three times already! Man... it's becoming an obsession like harry potter.. help! I can't go back to the elizabethan time, and I can't live such a life, with all the beautiful words, and I can't find a guy like that! Not this lifetime at least! What am I going to do?!

It's such a beautiful movieeeee....

I took Manuel's advice and went out for a walk to get some fresh air. Nothing like a walk to clear your mind, get things sussed in the brain. It's time to take control of my life. I've switched off my cat, from now on it's my own job to bring the cash. I shall go to student jobsearch tomorrow and get a job of some sort. At the same time it struck me that my exam is in only four days.. time to take action and rehearse some German. If my test today went crap, it's only because I didn't study enough for it. Hard cold fact. I have packed up my moon piece, from now on I'm wearing the dragon around my neck for a while. No piece can help bring beneficial change, that is my job as well. I have to change things around.
For now I'm gonna give a f that I'm getting red spots all over. At least they treat me well, they don't itch that bad, and in fact most of the day I don't notice them at all. Just give it some time and see if there's a change. At least if I die my parents can sue the doctor that "treated" me.

nothing.

Everything is going wrong nowadays. I'm feeling pretty low at the moment. I'm sick and I spent $60 that I don't have on a doctor's appointment and medicines that didn't fix anyting at all. My money will take forever to get here, and even when I get them I have to wait another half week before I can access them because my netbank sent my visa card to the wrong address, it was sent back and now they're saying that IF the card comes back to them they will send it to the right address... *sigh* I got a B+ for the easiest assignment this year, and I did bad on my test today. so good bye to the only A+ that I ever had the chance to get. The worst of all is that most of these things are not only probably, but most likely all my own foult. I don't know what it is that I've got, but I know now that it isn't scabies, and it's not an allergic reaction because I haven't been eating anything unusual, it's probably not bedbugs because I have steam washed my entire bed, and still I'm getting red spots everywhere. I've done so much for nothing. I'm really tired. I feel like a song by Nick Cave. I'm going to bed and I'm staying there untill June.

OVEN!!

Soundtrack: Underworld - you bring light in

We finally got the oven! So, the whole afternoon has been devoted to baking various things. It feels so great to have an oven! Being able to bake! But now we realise how small our kitchen is... We have to find a better place for it than the table. Big decisions.

Our oven and the first produce. :)

The sophisticated bunch: Eating homemade pizza on the floor, listening to Chopin and discussing German composers.. hehe.

My crew. My lovelies. Cleaning up all my mess that took me two and a half hour to create. you gotta love 'em.

essay again

soundtrack: Fat freddy's drop - flashback (jazzanova's breathe easy mix)

I'm trying to write my essay. I have two days to do it. So what do I do? the last half hour or so I've been taking pictures of my eyes, trying to determine what colour they are. And I have reached a conclusion. The more light that shines on them, the more yellow they are. So I thought I'd just put that on my blog, just so I can have some feeling of accomplishment today too...

Looks like it's gonna be a really calm and uneventful weekend. not entirely though: My hopeless flatmate did the dishes yesterday after cooking, even though I did not ask him to. I think Manuel has a positive effect on him, because every time Manuel is here, he behaves totally different. Hmm... strange. I've already started packing. Can't wait for my dad to get here!! I talked to him yesterday, he's booked the ticket, n he's arriving on the 20th of June, exactly one month from now! I wanna plan a nice little itinerary, so that he gets to see a lot of nice stuff. Definitely gonna take him to Rotorua to see the Geysirs, and he wants to see Hobbiton. ^_^ ooh! Let time pass quickly!

flatmate blues

These days I'm spending and increasing amount of time being annoyed by my flatmate. He's like a brain tumour. So... this post is going to just be a rant about him, be warned, if you cannot be bothered, DON'T read on.

He is like a piece of furniture, always at the same place, which is here (snarl) and always saying the same things over and over and over.... "are you going out?" "Hello?" "what are you making?" "did you go shopping?" grrrr.... Why is it sooooo important to know at all times who is in when you're not even going to talk to them!? every - single - time.. Can't you see that when I'm putting on shoes I'm going out?! YES, when you have four bags of food, you have gone shopping!! C-O-N-T-E-X-T

He never contributes ANYTHING to this flat! he eats and eats, but can NEVER buy bread when we're running out, he NEVER shops! He just sits there, expecting to get everything in his lap! He uses our stuff without asking, taking it for granted that we want to share shampoo and body soap with him. What's that?? I am still not over it, and he still steals my body soap!!!
He can't clean! He can't cook! He destroys our frying pan by using a fork in it, he destroys my strainer by leaving it in a pan with water so that it rusts... He just can'd do the dishes when he's done eating, he does them half way!! AARRGGHHHH!!! He cant even take out the friggin trash when it is sitting on the floor right in front of the door! NOT ONCE has he taken out the trash unless I specifically told him to. And he is TWENTYFIVE!!

He is always more than willing to eat/drink stuff that we offer him, but he never ever gives anything back. Manuel got him beer yesterday, and then suggested that he should get some wine for friday. His response: "I don't like wine..."
Enough. Enough! ENOUGH! ENOUGH! ENOUGH ALREADY!

I'm going insane. Being alone with him just makes me hate him more. Ok, I don't hate him, I just strongly dislike him. Give me the strength to put up with him for another month!

Oh, and happy birthday bloggie! 1 year old today!! :)

Happy 17. May, everyone!

Soundtrack: Bjørnstjerne Bjørnson - Ja vi elsker dette landet

Another year, another 17. May spent away from home. Today's mission: trying to finish my essay, and trying to stay sober and stay away from parties. Missons complete: 0. Peter is leaving tomorrow, and showed up with a whole army of Germans, so again, Norway was invaded by Germany. On 17. May! ah, the tragedy.. Well, thei're nice ppl, so it's ok I think. At least I had a really good celebration, a couple of beers, and then to bed? My essay has now 1800 words, so it's ok. I did some good work today.

*pats myself on the sholder*

Well done me, and happy 17. May!

The Norwegian anthem

Earthquake

This time I'm sure I felt it. Last time there was a big one, I was asleep, and only dreamt of it... Just now, about an hour ago there was another big one north of NZ, but closer this time. Goodness... Mother Earth is grumpy.. all volcanoes are at level 1 alert... maybe I get to see an eruption while I'm here? We'll see.

Earthquake this evening

Soundtrack: Jaga Jazzist - Airborne

So, this weekend has been full of events as usual, and as usual, not many of these events have been related to schoolwork... I went for a party on Friday, it was the birthdayparty of a french girl who lives in Stafford House. We went with the group of people that we know but only hang out with sometimes, it was nice to get to know them better. It was really fun, I even learned how to scrum... hehe. Useful knowledge. On Saturday, the dynamic trio that will be united in a flat next trimester (me, Jo and Manuel) went out clubbing for the first time ever. :) We went to our former flatmate Joe's apartment to preparty, something that did not work very well because of the policies in Mckenzies... It's a pretty sucky hostel. After that we went to GoodLuck bar on Cuba, which was really good. It could have been an epic event, had it not been for Joe, who was so drunk that he couldn't stand on his feet... and decided to stand on Jo's feet instead, causing her shoeheal to break. Pretty shoes... all gone..


Then on Sunday, which actually was devoted to my essay, this random guy that I agreed to tutor that day called me at 2pm(and woke me up..) and insisted on meeting up at Kelburn library. I already told him that I might be too tired on Sunday, but I guess he took it as a joke. I realised that tutoring in Norwegian is a real drag, although it is not that difficult. I just hate having to talk like the TV-hosts do, it sounds all fake and disgusting, but that is the by-the-book way of talking, so no choice. He was doing pretty well though.

Today I've been doing some reading for my essay, and this evening I cut Manuel's hair. A task that was not as easy as it sounds.. We didn't manage to get a machine, so I had to do it all by hand. I must say, the result was not that bad though... I expected it to be a lot more shitty than it turned out... ^_^

NOW, I'm going to have a hot shower and go to bed early to be rested for tomorrow. Gnite!

picture

Funny how amazingly warm and fuzzy your brain goes when someone likes your work... so when someone contacted me on my photoblog and said that they wanted to use one of my pictures because it inspired him deeply, I couldn't say no. The result, a couple of days later is this:

For the original picture, click here.

Everything is in harmony in our flat now for once, cause now everything is sorted out. We know what's gonna happen next trimester, and everyone is cool with it.

So now I'm gonna go to bed all warm and fuzzy inside my brain, feeling completely unacomplished in my studying, and sleep tight until the morning when I have to get up early and have a marketing lecture. Must stop being lazy, or things will go bad...

fuzzy fuzzy fuzzy

satisfied spider

The spider has secured the web, caught the fly, now satisfied it can leave the web to collect dust and disappear.

sometimes it takes a lot of work not to hurt someone...

Soundtrack: The National Bank - blue as we like it

Lies are like spiderwebs. They spread out from the middle, and every single strand of it need to be attatched for the web to work. It's a fragile web, and a breath of wind can destroy it. It needs a spider to maintain it: the liar. The liar makes sure that all the ends are tied up at all times, and this can be quite a formidable task... At the same time the spider has to be careful, not to get caught in the web himself. So tiring... Even though the web that I spun today is quite small, I'm really finding it a task to maintain it. I have tied up the ends, but one end is not yet tied very tight, and I am afraid that it will break. I can't wait for it to get all old and dusty and forgotten.

hurricanes game!

Soundtrack: Björk - the pleasure is all mine

We went for the Hurricanes vs the Reds yesterday, serious fun! Facepaint and all.. hehe. We had a ritual here, painting our faces, and had to force Ronny to paint some of his face. No way was he going with us without paint! He came 'round. Then we went to the game and I got to see Nonu and Umaga live for the first time! Amazing fun! Thankfully the Hurricanes won, even though it wasn't a great game. My hottie, Nonu was playing so I was all happy. The guys were happy about the cheerleaders.. hehe. Something for everyone. After the game we went out for some celebrating. :) had a laaate as night, went to bed at 7:3o ish....

Oh and by the way: on thursday there was a huuuge earthquake on near Tonga, it was a 7,9 one and coastal communities up north evacuated their citicens... pretty weird. There was a tsunami warning, and because international media blew the news up, ppl were worried and left their homes. And lo and behold, now suddenly the government has realised that New Zealand would be sooo dead if there came a real big tsunami. No shit... there didn't seem to be much control here. My dad actually knew about this way before I did, probably cause I was sleeping, and just felt the tremours. I thought it was one of the regular ones.

The Gymoholic

As my funds are running low, I'm experiencing the same work-out curve as last year, when the whole walkaholic thing set in before exams... I'm addicted to the gym. I love the gym. I'm there wayy too much... Yesterday and today, and probably tomorrow too to keep Jo company. my my my... At least it is a somewhat healthy obsession, and hopefully this time I'll be able to see some progress. Since I started training last year in October, I can't say that the reflection in the mirror has changed much.

Been doing German all day, but mostly just for fun and I find that when I procrastinate in German I'm still learning, which is a somewhat dangerous discovery. Reading comics in German is still procrastinating.

I guess I should try to kick in the high gear tomorrow and start some essay, even though I've got a lot of time. Try to do better than last time. That is always a good goal.

a rare occurance: hangover

Soundtrack: Paul Desmond & Dave Brubeck - Take Five

On a tuesday. I am sooo embarrased of myself... Thus I decided to blog, displaying to the world just how embarassed I am and just to make it even worse so that I never do something this stupid again. I can't believe it.. I'm becoming more and more of a teenage drunk the older I get! Maybe it's like a last fling or something before I get too old to act this way. Maybe.. I just know that I'm having so much fun! What am I gonna do.... just keep on going? As long as my grades are ok? Study harder? And play on? Maybe...

Tina und Manuel: Comrades in booze.

Apologized to Jason today, just cause we were kinda abrupt and rude, barging in on him.. He thought it was hilarious. I guess we should consider ourselves lucky that some ppl have humour. And are not too sore about things. Haven't seen the others today. It was fun though, the night ended at about 3am.

Mental note: Never on a Monday.

Drunk happy Tina is typing again...Oh my goodness... Mauel shows up at 8:30 and says that I should come to this international party, and that it's the nast night with Ina an that she will be really sad If I don't come to the party.. So I guess I'm going to the partyright? Anyway, we make a total fool of ourselves, barging into Jason's flat and taking photos and all.... really bad.. Ina must be sooo embarrassed by us. (I'm sure she is). So we show up at the party, wayy too late just as I predicted it's a really sad party. We end up gettting whasted at some irish pub.... on a Monday.... it's getting worse. Jo, if I woke u up at 3am I apologize!

This is Me and Ina, she is embarrassed cause we just barged in on her guitar session with Jason O..... Poor girl...

Weekend

Soundtrack: Gotan Project - Celos

Have had a quiet and nice weekend, for a change. On Friday I went out to Murphy's with Geeta, Manuel and a girl called Ina that has been here for a week now. Nice to have some girlpower for a change. :) Saturday we went to see a movie called the Matador, which was funny. A nice little movie to just relax on a saturday evening, for once. N then we went to our old time favourite. Espressoholic. Ahh.. the good ol' days with kuni n his four girlfriends, and chilling with the group. *sigh* I think no one can resist that place. And today, I've been sick. Soar throat, fever, feeling sorry for myself.. calling mum... the lot. Pat woke me up at 14:30, wanting to borrow our frying pan, and I think he was kinda surprised that he woke me up, and I was kinda surprised that I was the first one to wake up... this flat is weird. Two ppl who sleep till evening and one that is never here.

I'm kinda tired.
Time for bed again.

all I want

I just want to sleep.
I just want to get through the day not worrying about not being appreciated, I just want to feel safe that life will bring me what I need. I just want back my faith, that everything sorts itself out. I want my heartrate to go down. I don't want to be afraid of change. I want to get fit. I want an oven.

Why do I worry so much?

I need assurance.

PMS (take it as a warning)

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - Love Letter

To long for something that is achievable if one dares to go for it, and to be realistic about what has been

I just finished watching Bridget Jones: The edge of reason, and now I'm really depressed... Why can't I fall in love with someone nice? someone who hits on me when I go out, who seems really nice and who actively seeks me up? Why do I always have to find some kind of mistake with them that just makes me leave in silence? Why do I have to be so picky..
And my new flatmate is driving me slowly insane. With Jo gone like all the time, it's just getting more and more worse. He is so monotone, so boring... And the worst of it is; he is a really NICE guy.
(Thatisapartfromstealingshampooandsoap
andtoothpasteandmakingdisgustingsoundsinthebathroom
andburpingallthetimeandnevereatinganythingbutnoodles
andsuggestingthathewantsmetocookandnevereverleavingtheflat
andalwaystalkingabouttrivialthingsandthingslikethat).
Please, PLEASE, let there be a change.













Other than that it's been nice to have a day off. Off from working like insane on my assignment and having an average resting pulse at about 110... I went with Jo and Trong to Satay Kingdom. Nice as, as always. Fish Curry is to die for.. Nah, rather to kill for.
Got out some movies, and I'm ready to be serious about my studies now. I sincerely hope. So So I'm gonna sulk for a little while longer, and then I'm gonna hit the books.

assignment...

It is now 2:34 am and I was going to sleep but I'm so stressed that my heart is racing on and I can't sleep I'm just thinking of the assignment and all the things I should be doing and worrying about the grade so I decided to give a shit about sleep and just study no use in trying to relax and whasting time like that when I can't sleep anyway. This is bad.

Look familiar anyone?

Soundtrack: Recloose - Why I Otta

Guess what happened yesterday:
Yes, a good ol fashion fire drill. Ahh, I miss those days in Vic house. Getting brutally awaken in the middle of the night, and freezing outside while waiting for the firemen to recover the item that had been microwaved for too long.. Nah, not really. Yesterday we had our first false alarm of Stafford house. And we had to walk back up...

I'm working, working, freaking out as usual and believing that I will fail the course and be kicked out of my education... Oh, the drama. If I fail this assignment that means hard work not to fail the paper. But: I have resolved that I will work harder from now on. I can't go on like it have up until now. I shall continue to play hard, but less time will be spent on procrastination and being lazy.

Next week we start again. I must say, next trimester I want to try and get my German classes squeezed into 3 days.. I hate having to travel up and down the whole week. So much time seems to vanish just in travelling...
Now I have to finish my assignment.

Survived!

I survived my dentist appointment, and can happily say that I don't remember any of it at all! Lovely... :)
Joanne came with me, and it all went very fast. Indeed, very fast. It said on the info that I got that the sedation blocks out your memory, so it seems like it goes very fast. And it did, it seemed like it took about 3 minutes. I love my dentist...

***HEARTY SIGH***

Assignment

Soundtrack: Nick Cave - sorrowful wife

Got the dentist appointment tomorrow. My nerves are still hanging in there, I have no Idea why but I'm thankful all the same.

Quiet, thoughtful and a bit melancholy tonite. I think it's called nostalgic...

I know lives, I could miss
Without a Misery -
Others - whose instant's wanting -
Would be Eternity -

The last - a scanty Number-
'Twould scarcely fill a Two -
The first - a Gnat's Horizon
Could easily outgrow -

Emily Dickinson

ok.. I have no life

Soundtrack: Björk - hidden place

It is really evident, when one has nothing to do. Suddenly, u have time to write about absolutely everything that happens every day...

I went jogging in my new shoes today, and it was kinda horrible... they need a lot of time, I think, to become comfy. I have blisters so big that they are almost bigger than my toes... I have no idea how to soften the shoes. Any suggestion will be appreciated.

Apart from that, I maxed out the traffic on my connection, and actually got some work done. And some new procrastinating: I created a scrapbook of all the plays I've gone to here in New Zealand, and I will put in nice pictures from my time here as well. Must go see more plays..
And, now I have Cheech and Chong to look forward to. :)

Snore

Soundtrack: Still, The National Bank - Half blind

This is like the creepiest shopping mall display I've seen in a while...

Slow days, haven't done much today. Gonna max out my internet traffic tomorrow and be without connection for the entire Sunday, maybe then I can get something done. It's worth a try. Gonna tuck in early for a change. (early = 1am) Some Emily Dickinson on the bedside should set me up for some nice dreams. ^_^

I am so cold...

Soundtrack: The National Bank - Half Blind

I AM SO COLD! Why won't they turn up the heat a bit... BRR! I am really quite bored now. Really. The next 7 days are devoted to my assignment, haven't done much today, but still feel proud as that I started.. hehe. It's gonna take some work though.. and I can't munch! Damn, I always munch when I am working, but my toothache is lingering, like a grey shadow over everything that I do. I will be sooo happy when I'm finished on Thursday. Still, I'm scared stiff. so mentally exhausting to go around and prodding all these feelings of fear all the time... And a total of all my friends don't get me at all. At least Jo doesn't laugh at me.

Today we went out for a dinner and a show. Nice.. we went to Istana Malaysia for dinner, which was nice, and then afterwards we went to Reading to see Iceage 2. Nice evening. :) Feels strange not to go out on a Friday... and I don't think I'm going out tomorrow either, not with this toothache, so it will be my first weekend since I go here that I'm not going out. weird.. but it feels nice too.

Buhbye shoes... U served me well!

Soundtrack: Sergei Rachmaninov - Konzert für Klavier und Orchester nr.2 c-moll op 18


So, as I said I completely toasted our shoes. and today was the sad day of parting with my old shoes... They have served me well indeed. If u feel like going down memory lane with me, go to my archive and look up October 16 last year when I bought them. So young... So full of life...
They were the one who changed my life, they helped me change from a couch-potato to a more healthy individual, who works out several times a week. They marked a milestone in my life that way. I shall always remember them.

So today I went and bought some new shoes. I can't not run anymore, at least now I know how to wash my shoes. You learn from mistakes. Yeah, as you may understand, not a whole lot is happening nowadays. I'm procrastinating as hard as I can, succeeding in a way with that. Was supposed to go for ballroom dancing today, but I actually hurt my anckle yesterday, so not reallly fit to be dancing ard trying to look gracious today. Mattis is havin a slumberparty, introducing Bearly to the rest of the gang. Hope they will keep it down so I can sleep.. hehe.

24 Bruises! (I counted)

Soundtrack: Faith No More - Easy

PAINTBALLL!!!!

Paintball is absolutely awesome!!! Spent about 3 hours on the field today, shooting at my flatmates and friends and getting shot at. Running in the bush and crouching down behind tyres and all... The first 15 minutes I was scared shit to get shot, and then I got shot, and that was it. It hurts like shit, but only for about 3 seconds. So: KILL'EM ALL! Man, that was fun. At the end, to empty our guns, we had a mexican stand-off, where we stood ground and just emptied our guns at each others. pain... immense pain.

When we got back we put our shoes in the washer. Aaand... They're all melted now. I don't know how to tell Ronny...

tired

Up until 6am because I had a tiny toothache...
T_T Scared. Have appointment in about 1 week..
Hope it will die down again like last time, so I don't have to reshedule. Will go on the 20th anyway, so ...

T_T

Holiday, barbecue and stuff

Soundtrack: Nina Simone - Black is the colour of my true love's hair

This weekend, as usual, there was partying. This time to celebrate the fact that our holiday has started! Easter holiday here I come! writing a 5000 word assignment... I got my German assignment back today and got a B+, cause I didn't take it seriously enough. that sucks, but at least I have a chance to resubmit. I'll do that. Have spent a whole our correcting my grammar and vocab, and was banging my head against the desk in despair when finally Manuel came to my aid. Thank goodness.. it's nice to have a private tutor. ^_^



This friday we had a bbq. It wasn't one of large scale, but it worked. A bit windy, but no rain, so good one. :) I made some awesome (forgive my modesty) teriyaki salmon packages, have been craving fish for some while so it was good as. After bbq we had a preparty in our flat and then hit the town.

Then on Saturday, Geeta asked me if I wanted to go out. Finally! A girl's night! We met up in her flat, then after a short trip to Mckenzies (dodgy as!) we went back and met up with Geeta's friend from Singapore (afraid to spell her name, in fear of being extremely rude and insulting the entire Indian world). We crashed an Indian party and it was really cool, there were free drinks and lots of Indian music all night! We danced the night away and then went to Gogo's for the first time ever. I quite liked it there.

So, now it is time to get serious and do some studying... I can't believe how lazy I am.

I love my dentist!

Soundtrack: Faithless - Salva Mea

I can't believe this! Here I was, chillin' out listening to loud as music, celebratin that my holiday is officially started, and the phone rings. IT'S MY DENTIST! He called to acknowledge my appointment that I booked yesterday, and wanted to know how I was doing, and then he went through the procedure with me, how the sedation works an all, and told me to have confidence in the sedation. I feel like a queen. All warm and fuzzy, my dentist really cares about me. :) I'm gonna get through it.

The least thing I can do in return is to give him credit:
It is Jeff Jones, at Symes de Silva house on Courtenay.

small update

Soundtrack: Massive Attack - Name Taken

Got woken up by a quick earthquake this morning.

I'm heading for bed, but thought I'd throw in a small update before I go. Have had a busy few days, and still I have an essay to finish by Friday!! Oh well, it shouldn't be impossible, but not that easy either. The topic is a bit boring.

This weekend I've been partying AGAIN. There was a Karaoke night in Stafford on Friday, and I sang Aha - Take on me. Horribly... *L* Ah well, it was good fun. Saturday I went out with Patrick, Manuel and my new flatmate, Ronny. He is really cool, I like him. :) He is definitely much more subdued than Joe, but he is good fun. I'm craving for girls... I'm hanging out with guys all the time! I'm really funny these days. I'm completely surrounded by people, but in a funny way I still feel a bit lonely. And afraid of being alone.. A lot of ppl will be going away in the next two weeks, so for all of my friends who are staying in Wellington: prepare to be bugged!! I'll show up when u least expect it and demand your attention. Everything is always changing and I guess the pace in which they are changing is freaking me out a bit..
So I went out for a walk just now and tried to calm my mind to focus on my essay, but didn't really succeed that well. My thoughts are flying away as much now as before I went out.